I had a request to write more about recreating myself . Fun! First in the final week of the 21-day challenge, something new with hair. I so often wash my hair, let it dry, get sidetracked doing various things and then last minute try to pull it together. Today, I opted for using the heat rollers and a small curling iron to curl it back away from my face. It was a little wild so I then pulled it back with a barette at the last minute. But to spend more than 15 minutes with my hair is something new!
Skirt: China Tailor (special memories when I wear this skirt)
Shirt: Ann Taylor
Necklaces: Ann Taylor/Banana Republic.
Back to re-creating myself. Although I have not had normal vision ever, I spent most of my growing up years with ability to see with no night vision and limited peripheral vision. I learned I had Retinitis Pigmentosa, officially, when I was 18 years old. I quit driving (had a restricted license) when my kids were very young and then began to use a cane in 1995. I recall a time of feeling so awkward about pulling out the cane. I had a choice to stay stuck or re-create myself and begin to use a tool that would help me. During this time, I learned about being authentic to myself. I still remember a former neighbor questioning my using the cane. I realized she didn't understand nor could she and I needed to do what was best for myself and my family. The cane became a symbol of freedom and empowerment. I let go of what will people think and it was amazing! I began to walk with a guide dog in 1997 and again felt some re-creation being experienced. With a guide dog, I learned to be much more assertive and gained so much more confidence. I walked with confidence like I had not even known was possible. As I have experienced challenging times -- being asked to leave a place that needs to be educated on the ADA, or someone that talks to me like a child; I find myself taking a gentle breath, smiling and educating them in a clear confidant way. Perhaps part of my emphasis with my clients on Self-Compassion is I have found it a vital part in my journey of re-creating myself. I acknowledge and support the hard parts of my journey in hopefully :) a healthy way. (That sounds like another fun blog post.) Where would I be without Retinitis Pigmentosa that has pushed me to a next level of re-creating myself. I think we all have something that nudges us to re-create ourselves. It is an ongoing journey. I am grateful, and I hold my head high with a smile and let Cricket watch out for the obstacles. I'm also glad today to be challenged by April to spend a little time on my hair!
5K run this morning. A little chill in the air ... fall is coming.