What does Retinitis Pigmentos and Fractured Bone have in common? Well, today as Steve and I were leaving the orthopedic doctor's office today I said this kind of feels like when we left the UCLA Medical Center 30 years when confirmed that I had Retinitis Pigmentosa. Why? Well, they both felt like kind of big news to take in that may change my life a bit and also more information than my brain could process in that moment.
Now, I've fractured bones before ... actually quite a few :) -- both my arms a couple times and my right foot prior. This one was a little different as the options he discussed are surgery and no running for now and then no distant running. I'm in the middle of training for a marathon. Running has become one of my passions. To not be able to do so anymore ... that's a little more than the brain can process right now. I told the doctor ... but one of my dreams is to run the Boston Marathon.
I remember him saying .. we don't need to give up on that dream. I'm holding on to that!
Cycling is still good. So, Steve and I started talking about where that next century bike ride could be -
I also just had an amazing brunch brainstorming with a dear friend and colleague about some ideas that we are so excited about.
I am honestly feeling some disappointment in not being able to run or even walk too well in this moment. I celebrate the joy in this life and greet each day with courage so I appreciated this quote that came in my inbox today as I'm building character :):
“People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built.”
― Eleanor Roosevelt
And then of course one of my favorites, by Dr. Alan Wolfelt
This is what I am faced with right now in my life's journey, while I'd like it to be different, I must allow myself to face the reality of what is happening - when you surrender you release attachment to how you feel your life should be and invite yourself to be in the presence of your life exactly as it is, while naturally difficult to do, surrender is an act of courage.
Hope you have a wonderful Easter weekend.