What does Retinitis Pigmentos and Fractured Bone have in common? Well, today as Steve and I were leaving the orthopedic doctor's office today I said this kind of feels like when we left the UCLA Medical Center 30 years when confirmed that I had Retinitis Pigmentosa. Why? Well, they both felt like kind of big news to take in that may change my life a bit and also more information than my brain could process in that moment.
Now, I've fractured bones before ... actually quite a few :) -- both my arms a couple times and my right foot prior. This one was a little different as the options he discussed are surgery and no running for now and then no distant running. I'm in the middle of training for a marathon. Running has become one of my passions. To not be able to do so anymore ... that's a little more than the brain can process right now. I told the doctor ... but one of my dreams is to run the Boston Marathon.
I remember him saying .. we don't need to give up on that dream. I'm holding on to that!
Cycling is still good. So, Steve and I started talking about where that next century bike ride could be -
I also just had an amazing brunch brainstorming with a dear friend and colleague about some ideas that we are so excited about.
I am honestly feeling some disappointment in not being able to run or even walk too well in this moment. I celebrate the joy in this life and greet each day with courage so I appreciated this quote that came in my inbox today as I'm building character :):
“People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built.”
― Eleanor Roosevelt
And then of course one of my favorites, by Dr. Alan Wolfelt
This is what I am faced with right now in my life's journey, while I'd like it to be different, I must allow myself to face the reality of what is happening - when you surrender you release attachment to how you feel your life should be and invite yourself to be in the presence of your life exactly as it is, while naturally difficult to do, surrender is an act of courage.
Hope you have a wonderful Easter weekend.
The journeys of Becky, blind from retinitis pigmentosa, and her beauitiful guide dogs.
8 comments:
I am very sorry that you received this disappointing news. As always, you are courageous & inspiring my dear Becky. Hugs to you!
Hugs back to you Debi. Thanks!
No running?! Oh no. I am so sorry. I guess this means that no Ogden Marathon, right? I was so looking forward to meeting you at the finish line. But your outlook and attitude is inspiring, even more inspiring than you running a marathon.
Blessings,
Goose
You are one of the most couragous people I know, but what tough news!!! so very very sorry.
Mom
Goose - I haven't given up yet. If not at the Marathon then we will just have to find another time to meet SOON!!
Thanks mom. xoxo
Oh, Becky, I'm so sorry that you're going to have to give up your distance running. I know how you love it.
Your statement about how giving up--accepting life as it is-- can be a sign of courage was eye-opening. Thank you for all your words of encouragement and the example of your life, which speaks more clearly than words.
Love you, Loye
That is horrible for you! I can only imagine the disappointment in hearing those words....especially in the middle of all the hard work you have put into your training! So sorry....hope you can get lots of bike rides in soon! Loves!
We'll hold onto every word he said about not giving up on that dream! I'm so so so sorry! I've missed running enormously and I don't want you to have to experience that!
I love you tons and I'm always cheering for you!
xoxo
shan
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