What's the hardest thing for you right now?

Funny after my joyful post yesterday had a couple emails from people asking me if I really felt Retinitis Pigmentosa was joyful!?  Ha ... no, I have found that surrendering to what is and finding the joy in life indeed has created a happy transformative life, however, I have my struggles of dealing with a degenerative health condition.  I don't ever want to portray that my life is just zip-a-dee-do-dah (spelling?), that's not real. 

I recently sat down with one of my best friends for lunch and after chatting about this and that she asked me this question.  What's the hardest thing for you right now?  (I hope for everyone that they have a friend like her ... such depth, caring, and love is felt from her.  It is amazing to be with her and just feel of her love and support.)  I blurted out today its my blindness.  Perhaps, a little surprising after my joyful post yesterday!   As I mentioned the past six months or so ... have been continual adjustments with technology, adding new skills to my repertoire at the office, in shopping, my home - etc, etc, etc.  She listened, validated, and asked how she could be a more helpful/supportive friend.  (done. she already is amazing)  She didn't try to fix me or tell me it could be so much worse  .. she just was a friend in my moment.  Tables were turned for what's the hardest thing for her right now?  And, then also much laughter.  I absolutely love her laugh - it warms my heart.  Oh how I love her and appreciate her friendship.