My little red tether is my anchor in running with my friends. A beautiful guide dog has been my tether/anchor in mobility and independence for 17 years: 1. Pantera 2. Cricket, and now my beautiful 3. Georgina (Georgie). A life of family and friends is my joy and anchor in life.

The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it. CC Scott

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Dripping with Joy. Retinitis Pigmentosa

In one of my groups this week we talked about transformation from our losses. Our losses come in various forms - sometime we are prepared for them and other ones hit us out of nowhere.   The last six months have been one of increased adjustments for me as bit by bit further adjustments are made in the blindness journey.  However, most days I simply feel joy for my life and this blindness thing  that has been one of the losses that has transformed me. Sometimes opening those new doors can be a little scary.  This morning, I walked inside the house after our 5 mile run and felt so much joy.   The sweat was dripping.  I was greeted with pure love from Crickers.
Something pretty amazing to be dripping with sweat and joy. 
I hear the most laughter in some of my grief groups.  I love this quote:

I have seen what a laugh can do.  It can transform almost unbearable tears into something bearable, even hopeful.  Anonymous

I am grateful that my family and friends can laugh with me about this transformation of my blindness.  I like who it is helping me to become. 

A dear colleague of mine has had an intense loss this week. We've cried and grieved for him and his family.  He shared that it has been a time of deep sadness as well as deep gratitude.  Loss transforms us to a deeper place. 

My colleague and I prepped for our Self-Compassion course in our favorite place -- the patio of Rumbi's.  We find our shady place with Cricket nestled with a blanket and she seems to know she is in for a little longer lunch than usual as we chat about Self-Compassion.  I find myself feeling like a lucky girl to have a profession that I get to create a course on such a lovely topic and be enjoying a lunch with a dear friend.   

Kristin Neff, states in her book - Self-Compassion.  Stop beating yourself up and leave insecurity behind: Compassion, then, involves the recognition and clear seeing of suffering.  It involves feelings of kindness for people who are suffering, so that the desire to help emerges.  Compassion involves recognizing our shared condition, flawed and fragile as it is.      

Speaking of dripping with joy (and sweat!) ... yoga class was so hot last night.  My mat was wet and slippery and I started to giggle.  Steve behind me on a mat did not help the situation.   There was humidity in the air - the room was only 81 degrees, but it felt so much hotter.  YogicArts - amazing. 


Cassy said...

What a sweet dog... hope to have a dog as sweet as yours.

Cassy from Electric Guitar Online Lessons

Natalie | The Bobby Pin said...

I want to do Yoga everyday with you while I am in Utah! Then I'm going to come home and start running!

Becky said...

Cassy - yes, Cricket is very sweet. I wish you the same :).

Natalie - yes! I can't wait to see you and yoga every day sounds awesome.

Anonymous said...

Wonderful post, as always. Loss and laughter are probably two of the most transformational powers in the world. To lose something, but learn to laugh again is simply amazing.

Hope you're having a great day!

Mimi and CC Cabana said...

I feel your joy, Becky! It's wonderful to walk in the door and feel that sweet relief of home--and even more wonderful to get doggy kisses at the threshold!