My little red tether is my anchor in running with my friends. A beautiful guide dog has been my tether/anchor in mobility and independence for 17 years: 1. Pantera 2. Cricket, and now my beautiful 3. Georgina (Georgie). A life of family and friends is my joy and anchor in life.

The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it. CC Scott

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Still Learning

I am having so much fun decorating my office expansion upstairs. I didn't think that as a therapist who is blind that I would still love to create and decorate. For some reason, I thought that was something that I would lose when I lost my vision. Not!  I love the fun of putting it all together -- that bargain file cabinet we found on ksl.com, the shelf from a yard sale, pictures from Ross (I didn't even know they had pictures until my sweet friend found some amazing ones.)  I love the excitement of the other therapists who are loving our expanded space.  I love that we found this butterfly as a basis to work with and then found aspen trees and then found two pictures that blended the colors of the aspen trees PLUS had butterflies in them!  I picture a client sitting in this space and catching their breath as they wait for their appointment.   

I thought that I would quit loving to create fun outfits when I lost my vision. Again, that creativity is indeed there. I love to think of a bracelet that I want to wear for some reason and then build an outfit around that bracelet. Recently, I was thinking of my dear friend, Debi (so excited to get to see her next month). I started out wearing a bracelet she had given me ... that led to designing a whole outfit in my head and then enjoying it for the day. It didn't matter that I couldn't see it in the mirror. I love that my friends still ask me what would look cute with something they are wearing. I thought they would quit asking me when they realized I wasn't seeing them in the outfit.  I love that they pull me into the breakroom and describe their outfit with me!  I used to tell Steve, we'll save money when I can't see as I won't enjoy shopping for clothes, anymore.  Sorry, honey that is not the case.  However, I am being more frugal this year and being creative with what I have.

The other night in yoga during Shavasna (the meditation part of yoga), I visualized an eye, then another eye, followed the visual around and realized it was a lion!  This was intriguing to me because usually I close my eyes and it is black. I thought to myself in this meditative state - what is this lion trying to teach me ... Courage was the word that came to mind.  I am learning more about myself and my courage each day.  I continue to learn that Retinitis Pigmentosa means uncertainty.   One doesn't know when the light will go out.  That's okay - lessons are learned from letting go and embracing our fears as teachers.  I realize life is full of uncertainty.  I was just presented that lesson as a teacher called Retinitis Pigmentosa.  (We each have our teachers in life.)   Some days are hard - most are delightful.   

5 comments:

Sewfast said...

Your space is lovely Becky, as are you, inside and out! Your creativity is a part of who you are and even RP can't take that away! Thank you for your words regarding life lessons. You reminded me that they are given to all of us in different forms to teach us what we need to learn.

Alphini's Puppy Raiser said...

Such an inspiring post, Becky. I do love the space you have created too -- there's a healing, refreshing quality there. Beautiful.

karen (Mom) said...

We thought your office area was lovely and such warm peaceful coloring and decor. You have always had an amazing ability to make things beautiful - even as a little girl - and we are so grateful that inner ability to see and visualize is going strong and will always be there. You are who you are and that is just one of the great parts of YOU.

Love you

jennohara said...

I love the space as well! Love the butterfly!
I'm always so inspired by your writing. Thank you.

Becky said...

Thanks for your kind words. You all inspire me to keep writing (and blogging :D)