Still Learning

I am having so much fun decorating my office expansion upstairs. I didn't think that as a therapist who is blind that I would still love to create and decorate. For some reason, I thought that was something that I would lose when I lost my vision. Not!  I love the fun of putting it all together -- that bargain file cabinet we found on ksl.com, the shelf from a yard sale, pictures from Ross (I didn't even know they had pictures until my sweet friend found some amazing ones.)  I love the excitement of the other therapists who are loving our expanded space.  I love that we found this butterfly as a basis to work with and then found aspen trees and then found two pictures that blended the colors of the aspen trees PLUS had butterflies in them!  I picture a client sitting in this space and catching their breath as they wait for their appointment.   

I thought that I would quit loving to create fun outfits when I lost my vision. Again, that creativity is indeed there. I love to think of a bracelet that I want to wear for some reason and then build an outfit around that bracelet. Recently, I was thinking of my dear friend, Debi (so excited to get to see her next month). I started out wearing a bracelet she had given me ... that led to designing a whole outfit in my head and then enjoying it for the day. It didn't matter that I couldn't see it in the mirror. I love that my friends still ask me what would look cute with something they are wearing. I thought they would quit asking me when they realized I wasn't seeing them in the outfit.  I love that they pull me into the breakroom and describe their outfit with me!  I used to tell Steve, we'll save money when I can't see as I won't enjoy shopping for clothes, anymore.  Sorry, honey that is not the case.  However, I am being more frugal this year and being creative with what I have.

The other night in yoga during Shavasna (the meditation part of yoga), I visualized an eye, then another eye, followed the visual around and realized it was a lion!  This was intriguing to me because usually I close my eyes and it is black. I thought to myself in this meditative state - what is this lion trying to teach me ... Courage was the word that came to mind.  I am learning more about myself and my courage each day.  I continue to learn that Retinitis Pigmentosa means uncertainty.   One doesn't know when the light will go out.  That's okay - lessons are learned from letting go and embracing our fears as teachers.  I realize life is full of uncertainty.  I was just presented that lesson as a teacher called Retinitis Pigmentosa.  (We each have our teachers in life.)   Some days are hard - most are delightful.