Cruisin' with Cricket

Bright spots

2012-01-31T06:31:00.000-07:00

Winter Challenge today is Bright and Bold. This little green jacket was a purchase for a St. Patrick's Day fundraising event we attended years ago. I don't wear it too often. The challenge of wearing something bright seemed like a great opportunity. My photographer, Steve, had a super early meeting so we were up early to get our picture taken :). This bright little bracelet I seem to wear often for that pop of color. It has lime, orange, blue, brown, black and white in it.

Some other bright spots in my day:

Evening chat with Natalie & Adam. . We are loving having them close. Getting to see this mom and baby . So beautiful.

Off to get ready for running. Steve and I are enjoying listening to President Thomas S. Monson's book - To the Rescue. His life of faith and service is inspiring. One of the quotes that he shared with some missionaries when he was mission president and it was very cold: Dress warm. Work hard and don't look at the thermometer. I'll be sharing that with my running buddies :) this morning.

May you have a bright day.

A Region we love

2012-01-30T16:45:00.000-07:00

Steve and I love our little getaways to St. George, Utah. Even Cricket sleeps in! We usually listen to a great book on the way down - we talk about life in depth, we go to movies, lots of walks and runs, even browsing around TJ Maxx seems to be more relaxing down there.

So in the fashion challenge for the day: A decade or region - I had to choose St. George attire. We have secondary clothes down there so we can just hop in the car (almost) and go. It is also a wonderful part of the journey that my parents are down there and we get to enjoy time together.

Although I love to dress up - really this is my favorite attire - comfy clothes and going for a nice long walk with Cricket and Steve. We also ran four miles together while Cricket had her nap :).

Laughter & Pattern Mixing

2012-01-27T08:00:00.006-07:00

Last night we went to Brian Regan. We laughed so hard. We had great seats -- front row, thanks Natalie! Cricket was a good girl and slept through most of the laughter. Laughter feels good, doesn't it!

Pattern Mixing in our Winter Fashion Challenge.This is out of my comfort zone. I think more so because I don't use a mirror. What do you think?

Steve and I (and Cricket) are off to find a little sunshine and relaxation for a few days. My friends and I ran our 5K this morning. Just an observation: after a run I crave chocolate.

Hope you have a great weekend!

Channel Meg

2012-01-26T05:54:00.000-07:00

My kind of movie - Sleepless in Seattle & You've got Mail with Meg Ryan. I love her classy style in those movies. Yesterday when we stopped at All Tucked in, (a fun little bookstore with so many unique gifts. The woman helping that was so passionate about her store reminded me of Meg Ryan.) Steve found this black coat for me. I was so excited to be able to spend the gift card my colleagues had given me on this fun coat. I thought of Meg in You've Got Mail. There I was in a fun little bookstore and a jacket that made me think of one she might wear :). A good feature for the Channel Someone in the Winter Challenge.

(I've got mail)

I wore it to work today to show all my colleagues what their fun gift card had given me! It is a black fabric that passes the Cricket test - her hair just slides off the coat :).

Embracing a Trend

2012-01-25T08:28:00.002-07:00

Day three of our Winter Challenge. I visited Natalie's closet to find a trend to embrace. She loaned me this fun polka dot shirt and a pink neon belt. Polka dots make me think of my fun yellow dress that I wore as a little girl and then Natalie (its boxed up for that next little girl :) so I don't think I have worn them for a long time! So, this is trendy for me. Polka dots from Natalie's closet, Neon belt from Natalie's closet, pants from Lolabellas - citizens of humanity (favorite jeans, ever!).

Can you tell from this picture - I'm saying hurry Steve we've got to go :).

In other notes, I think Cricket is trying to embrace the trend of snow. Cricket and I walked up to Dick's Market yesterday. Sunshine with snow makes for a beautiful, challenging walk. It was cold, crisp, and we needed to be deeply aware of each step. Cricket has to use some judgment - slushy snow is okay to walk through. We can't stop for every step. Crusty snow becomes an obstacle. Truly a mindful walk. I found myself reflecting on how life is in that way ... we enjoy deep beauty and also challenges sometimes simultaneously with one another. On the way back I received a great call related to work. I stopped for a minute to pick up the call but also knowing that my Cricket was standing in snow and was probably hoping it would be a brief call :). Such a good, patient girl.

Fashion Challenge. Day 2. Monochrome

2012-01-24T06:00:00.003-07:00

How fun is this! Natalie , Dahlia and Becky in our black monochrome outfits.

Pants and sweater from ... Ann Taylor, of course!

Anything black in my closet takes the 'Cricket test' as Steve likes to call it. Is it a fabric that the beautiful yellow lab hair sticks to? If so, then it doesn't work.

Winter Fashion Challenge: Day One. Layers

2012-01-23T06:00:00.001-07:00

Layers in Utah in January are easy. Running on these chilly mornings is an exercise in layering. (I love it!) Outside of running, I enjoy layering up with fun scarves (many, thanks to my mom!) and colored gloves and versatile coats that can work as Cricket's blanket. (It works for us :). My colleagues found it pretty funny that Cricket settled right down on the floor of a conference when I put one of my scarfs by her. She would settle down without, but she does enjoy having something a little soft by her side. I find these cheap little colored gloves work great for walking with Cricket.. They keep my hands warm, but aren't so heavy that I can't feel the movement of the harness. Maybe its just me, but too many layers make it harder to be aware of her lead. So our layers of the day. My pink coat (bargain from Old Navy two years ago that I love. I also love that it travelled to China last year with Natalie.) This plaid scarf was given to me by my mother-in-law last year for my birthday. Its fun with turquoise, pink, and black.

Next layers - this little black jacket has been a treasure for years. I remember Natalie wearing it in college to a dance with jeans. I always feel a little cool when Natalie choose something from my closet :) to wear. Its just a fun little jacket that goes over many things. This pink sweater I found at American Eagle on my way to meet a friend for lunch last Friday. I love how it fits and wish I had it in more colors. The white button up layer is one of my favorites from Banana Republic a find a few years ago on clearance. I just rediscovered it in my closet, and its like buying a new shirt :). Black boots - so comfortable and with just a little heel they work great with pants or a casual dress. They are an easy height to walk with Cricket in as well.

How do I shop alone? With a guide dog, I walk into the store, ask Cricket to find the counter (if someone hasn't talked to us yet), and then ask for some assistance. Sometimes I need to explain to them how they can help me for example, I am blind and need a little assistance finding a black coat and anything else that you might have that is fun. The ending of the sentence is where I find out what they might have on sale, what is the fun item for the season that I might want to remember, etc. For example, as we are walking back to the clearance coat section they may say - springtime you will be wanting a bright splash of color. It also helps them feel more relaxed if they are unsure how to be helpful. I walked into Sur La Table and said I need a new cheese grater. They showed me a couple fun different options. I chose the grater with the cheese falling into a measuring cup - how cool is that! Gateway is one of the places that I shop alone. It is an easy layout of fun stores and easy pick up or fun meeting places. Yes it has its moments of challenge. Sometimes we have to sit down and have a lemon cookie (with frosting) and a diet coke just to regroup :).

Hope you have a great Monday!

A fun challenge

2012-01-21T07:05:00.002-07:00

Natalie encouraged me to do this fashion challenge with her last summer. We had fun. Like last time I'll probably find some new/old treasures in my closet.

If you'd like join us!.

Friday Favorites

2012-01-20T09:33:00.001-07:00

Some of my Friday Favorites:

This fun new birthday necklace from Natalie .

Meeting with some of my colleagues and mentoring them on developing their practice. Love to share something I am so passionate about.

Meeting a friend to celebrate our birthdays with soup and birthday cake. I've got my blanket in the bag for Cricket. I told her its going to be an extended lunch so settle in. Cricket - find California Pizza. Well, its not quite that easy. More like walk down the steps and its the first door on the right.

Movie night. I'm excited that soon our theater will have descriptive services. I am hoping we can get to the new movie with Sandra Bullock and Tom Hanks. Tonight perhaps. Anyone seen it yet?

The house cleaning and grocery shopping are complete for the weekend which is good because I agreed to work on Saturday. My colleagues gave me a gift certificate to a fun store -- All Tucked in for my birthday so I'll be stopping by there with one of them who is a fabulous describer.

My new running shoes. I'm having fun keeping track of their mileage. So far 13 miles. Today it was 40 degrees. It felt so warm.

What's your favorites of the day? Hope you have a great weekend.

Mingling. Retinitis Pigmentosa

2012-01-19T08:26:00.001-07:00

Steve and I recently attended an enjoyable evening with one of the organizations he belongs to with his employment. Another one is coming this Saturday evening. I will probably wear the dress I wore to the Guide Dogs for the Blind Holiday Luncheon. Cricket will probably change out into a black collar or maybe keep on her silver. We'll see what her mood is for the evening :).

Mingling and Retinitis Pigmentosa are not the easiest combination. There are many visual cues that people catch in this type of social setting that I simply miss. Its so much easier with a cane or guide dog as others have an easy visual cue that I am blind. I recall one dinner several years ago that we were attending. For some reason I didn't have my guide dog with me, cane was in my purse (its pretty unhelpful there) and a gentleman came up to me and started visiting and apparently he was holding his hand out to shake mine. Steve saw the situation unfolding and helped us out of this awkward moment that I was unaware that it was an awkward moment. Mingling is a part of life with church, work, social situations.

Some of my tips are: *Smile and be friendly and generally people will come talk to me rather than me finding someone, *Engage in the conversation - get to know them, *If it is an event where I know others, I may say to someone I am visiting with -- have you seen so and so, can you help me find so and so. This becomes a natural break in moving on to mingling. *Reach out my hand first to shake hands. Let the other person find my hand. *Brief introduction of Cricket so we can move on with the conversation and other topics. However, she is often an intriguing topic for others that haven't had an experience with a guide dog and I am happy to share her amazingness. Recently at a dinner with a table of people that had never met a guide dog before, the question came up - now just what does your guide dog do for you. That was a conversation for a while on Cricket's amazingness :).

Preference is to sit down with a group of friends at a table and enjoy an evening, but I know mingling is part of so many events and although its a little challenging, I wouldn't miss. We have fun.

Educating. Retinitis Pigmentosa

2012-01-17T22:37:00.001-07:00

Tonight I spoke to a group of Scouts earning their disability merit badge. They seemed to enjoy wearing my goggles and walking through an obstacle course with a cane. They also set up a great obstacle course for me and Cricket to walk through. Great work, Cricket. Thanks, Natalie for joining me. They asked some good questions. I hope they got the message that a guide dog or cane gives one lots of freedom and also that a person who is blind is simply a person who is blind. I was so proud of Cricket today. Miss Princess Paws, Cricket, walked well through the snow packed sidewalke in our quest to buy a Diet Coke.

Great news. I have been wearing my brace less. The doctor said it would be helpful to start moving it around (places where I could almost guarantee I wouldn't fall :). Its nice to not wear a brace for the obvious reasons and also, this fun yellow sweater that I had bought on clearance at Anthropologie has had to wait in my closet. It is such a fragile sweater that I knew it would snag all up with my brace. I'm holding cute little Dahlia with her legs out so she doesn't snag my sweater.

I left work today so inspired by my clients. Wow. One shared a quote that I enjoy:

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes it is the quite voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow." Mary Ann Radmacher

Beautiful Birthday

2012-01-15T20:33:00.003-07:00

This quote was shared with me this week and such a reminder to celebrate the gift of life.

Do not regret growing older. It is a privilege denied to many. Unknown.

(This is from my amazing mom.)

I woke up to treats, gifts (some awesome treasures that I can't wait to enjoy and wear), and even some cash (trying to decide between a black coat purchase or another pair of jeans that I love). The most beautiful part of this birthday is sharing with people I love.

I find myself on this birthday being ever so grateful for the joy in my life. Yes, I put this party hat on and started the singing of Happy Birthday :). Funny, it was dinner time for Cricket while we were opening presents so she is sitting by her bowl waiting for dinner. Silly girl. Actually silly girls!

Speaking of so much beauty in this day, I have been loving this necklace from See Beautiful. Confession: this necklace was intended to be a gift, but I loved it so much that I will be ordering another one for the gift! Along with the beautiful necklace, came the message in part - See Beautiful was designed to empower women to see the beauty they inherently possess and empower all to see the beauty in the world. As one that doesn't 'see' the beauty in the typical way, I can say it is indeed all around us. A portion of the proceeds go to The Dressing Room Project. Incredible message from them: Worry about the size of your heart not the size of your body.

Also available are tags that can fit on a dog's collar (or so many other uses). So now Cricket also has a tag on her collar from See Beautiful. I just love that my guide dog has a tag that indicates See Beautiful. We do. I am loving this message for us to See Beautiful as a guide dog team.

I've been getting asked some questions about retinitis pigmentosa, so I'm going to write some posts on that fun topic. Any questions, you might be wondering.

Birthday "Weekend"

2012-01-13T16:26:00.003-07:00

A birthday in January is nice - gives one something to celebrate in the cold weather after the holidays. The birthday celebration can begin when the card comes from my grandma who keeps on top of all our birthdays. We had some friends call and ask if we could start the birthday celebration weekend :). We enjoyed dinner, laughter, and celebrating a friendship of 20 years. Paul and I share the same eye condition - Retinitis Pigmentosa. We also enjoy as couples many of the same interests and so enjoy our time together. The sweetest card came in the mail from a dear friend that has been my friend for 44 years. I ran this morning (so awesome!) with a friend. The chatter warmed my heart and when we were at our turnaround point, I said, we're already there! This birthday I'm simply celebrating the gifts of good health, family and friends -- best gifts.

Red. Purple. Yellow.

2012-01-11T09:00:00.003-07:00

Another fun scarf, thanks mom! Its kind of adventurous when you try new colors together without having a visual judgment. Red, purple with a yellow sweater underneath. Colorful for a wintery day. Can you tell by my smile, I'm saying, hurry Steve :).

Acknowledge the Positive

2012-01-10T15:29:00.002-07:00

Cricket and I along with our teen girls group spent some time finding a positive about ourselves with each letter of our name.

This bear has taken the journey to each of the girls home as a simple reminder to be kind to themselves. We don't motivate by beating ourselves up. Unfortunately, it was still easier for them to write those negative thoughts than positive. But, if they can atleast recognize that is an unhealthy message playing, it makes it a little easier to try to change the channel in our mind. We reminded ourselves to STOP S = Stop, T = Take a breath, O = Observe, and P = Proceed. Mindfulness based Stress Reduction Workbook, Bob Stahl, Elisha Goldstein. And in the end, all left including Cricket with a card with some of their many positive attributes.

Savoring Sunday

2012-01-08T18:19:00.003-07:00

As we were walking out the door to church, we received a call that meetings were cancelled due to a gas leak in our building. We realized if we left right then we could catch Music and the Spoken Word at the beautiful tabernacle at Temple Square.

Beautiful music including Where Love is - which led me thinking of my Grandma P, who died when I was eight. I remember knowing as a little girl that this was a favorite song of hers and such think of her whenever I hear this song. I have been wearing lots of scarves, and its special that I still have the scarf she crocheted for me for my seventh birthday! Wow, almost forty years ago.

The message today was beautiful. The final paragraph of the message:

When we are disheartened and face an unknown future, think of others; when we feel depleted by life's challenges and overwhelmed with worries, think of others. It doesn't need to be much, it just needs to come from the heart; a listening ear, a welcoming smile, a warm embrace- or even a can of soda pop! As we demonstrate genuine, heartfelt interest in others, we-- and they-- will be refreshed.

Savoring this Sunday.

Visual

2012-01-07T07:44:00.000-07:00

I'm a visual learner and thinker. I learned braille (**note, I have so far to go in learning braille) by visual in my mind. Ultimately, you've got to be able to recognize with feel but know what the feel means. I can picture what an A looks like thus leading to knowing how it should feel. I can visualize what women (note: key one in finding the correct restroom) looks like in my mind.

I pull together an outfit by visualizing in my mind. I'm excited about my rooster towels hanging on the oven because I visualize their coloring is just right for the area with some red (a color I am working on having more subtle) with some green, yellow, purple and orange. I just bought a table runner and need to find a touch of yellow and green for the centerpiece.

The other day I bent down while pulling items out of the dryer and the door had swung open and smack. It HURT and actually still does. I was surprised there was no black and blue to show for it (really I'm glad there isn't). However, the next morning when it was still hurting I asked Steve to rub his hand over my forehead to validate that he could feel the bump and hear how it hurt. Of course, he did with the proper oh i'm so sorry, wow, that must really hurt and such :). It has become a visual in my work all week! I have used this example how we need to be listened to. Even when someone can't fix the problem, it helps to have them listen and empathize with our pain for a moment. Thanks Steve and thanks dryer for giving me a good example. Ouch. Often lessons learned come with some pain, right. I remember Janae in class reminding us to put our hands out in activities to prevent this situation.

Speaking of visual, Natalie and I went to the movie New Year's Eve. (Of course, I would love to go to any movie with her just for the fun of going to a movie and being with her) However, we also both loved this movie. Sometimes it surprises people that I really enjoy movies. Sure I miss out on some things. It really helps to have a few whispers of who/what is going on but really you can follow much through the dialogue. I was excited to read that our new theater is getting DVS (descriptive video service) which is so awesome!

What a difference a day can make. This picture is of Cricket and Dahlia enjoying the sunshine yesterday. Today we woke up to snow!

Friday Favorites

2012-01-06T09:46:00.000-07:00

Its Friday ... one of my favorite days.

This scarf Steve gave me is my very favorite running scarf. It is versatile and cute. If you are cold, you can cover your face and stay warm.

If you want to talk with your running buddies or cute four legged buddies you can pull it down and it keeps your neck warm and has a fun print plaid.

Steve you did fabulous on this find. He's on a quest, thanks to my hints :), to find me new running shoes for upcoming birthday. I think he'll find some new favorites.

Pretty pink toes. Fun pedicure with Natalie and Shannon last night.

Running - twice this morning with two friends. Fun! I couldn't do it alone - both because I need to be tethered and also because its just so much fun to run and chat. Another favorite - Valentine's candy. Probably not the best inbetween run snack but yummy. I love Valentine's Day.

Later today there will be time for cleaning the house. ACtually a favorite to get cleaned and organized for the weekend. Short day at the office.

Have a great weekend.

Pictures. Retinitis Pigmentosa

2012-01-05T06:00:00.001-07:00

One of my colleagues that wanted to see my dress from the Guide Dogs for the Blind Holiday Luncheon found the pictures . I was once again touched that I work with some incredible people that take such an interest in each other's lives. They also have each spent time wearing my goggles recently. These simulated goggles give one a sense of what it is like with Retinitis Pigmentosa. They don't make goggles for the visual field/acuity that I have - he told me tell them to just close their eyes! However, I do have a pinhole of vision and these goggles do give one a sense.

Scarves and Such

2012-01-03T20:30:00.000-07:00

Cricket and I were back into the doctor today for more x-rays on our hand. We had a little time on our hands as we waited so Cricket modeled the scarf my mom made me.

I had so many compliments on my cute scarf today! Thanks, mom.

I love that the x-ray tech said she loved Cricket so much she now had a 10-week old labrador! This is about our fourth - fifth ? x-ray and Cricket knows the routine and skips off with her and sits down while they take the pics.

Apparently, the bone is a slow healer. I get to stay in a brace for six more weeks and then check back. The doctor's assistant said I could take the brace off when I feel like I am safe and not going to fall ... ha, I think the brace better stay on has he read my chart notes of my journey of breaking a bone, getting the brace off and breaking a bone again :).

Simplicity. Shopping.

2012-01-02T20:00:00.051-07:00

I quit driving on Feb 28th - many years ago. Why that date? Well, I had gone to the opthalmologist and he said it was time (actually past time to say goodbye to a restricted driver's license)   Random - I was wearing a light blue Mickey Mouse sweatshirt (we had recently taken the kids to Disneyland) when a neighbor came over and asked so how are you going to be a mom. She also asked are you really going to sell your car, because what if you change your mind. We still laugh about these comments (she meant well) and wonder if I should just change my mind about this Retinitis Pigmentosa (RP) thing.

We had prepared for this day. We lived in an awesome location -- we walked to church, school, grocery store, dentist, bank, caught the bus two houses away.  Our neighborhood decision made our life so much simpler while raising our family. Still, I remember when I quit driving the adjustment of not running to the store to pick up this or that. For years, I was so organized with my shopping. I had a list designed in the way the grocery store was laid out. A consistent day that I went grocery shopping with a friend/driver/family member changed this time of crisis into such a simple routine.

Now, years later Steve has a more flexible schedule, and we seem to grocery shop on a more random basis. I still find it very helpful to keep a running list, now on my ipad, of what I need so when I make it to the store I am somewhat organized. I'm contemplating going back to those super organized days or maybe not :). I seem to be at a different phase in life on what helps make life simple. Often take out after a busy day at the office = simplicity.

What is on my running list of items? A solid black coat - fabric that doesn't catch dog hair (now is a great time to find a coat for a fabulous bargain... end of January even better), some more running socks, Cricket food, Trop 50 juice (pomegranate - my favorite), and a couple new plants for the office. (I like having live plants at the office but struggle with the keeping them alive aspect of this concept.) Steve is generally aware of my running list items, too so if he comes across that cute black coat he can make that purchase :).

Simplicity in shopping for me is some organization and some flexibility.

2012 Journey

2012-01-01T19:27:00.004-07:00

We spent the last four days or was it five in St. George? The joys of getting away to St. George where Cricket sleeps in til 8 am and we lose track of the days! We enjoy going for a run in warmer temperature ... contemplate which movie to see(saw Sherlock Holmes and War Horse) ... decide where to go for brunch ... and simply enjoy time together with simple choices. Bonus: my parents were also down there so that was fun to get to spend time with them.

My favorite comment on the journey was a lady that noted how 'gentle' Cricket was as we walked by to be seated at a restaurant. I smiled and agreed. Then, we heard her continue to comment to her family about the gentleness and sweetness of that beautiful dog. Indeed. Someone also commented that she was looking old. Oh not yet. I'm still calling her my sweet puppy.

2012. What do I hope for? I hope for a simple year :) (ha, ha I know) perhaps the ability to gracefully surrender to what isn't simple. Creating simplicity has so many possibilities ... simplicity in fashion, simplicity in organization, simplicity in enjoying an evening with these two cute girls

Blog: Cruisin with Cricket? I'm not sure its direction for the new year - any suggestions? I know I hope for another great year to be guided and have joyful, cruisin days with my dear Cricket.

Live life with passion, compassion, and lightly

2011-12-28T09:47:00.002-07:00

I recall the first time I laughed at a blind moment - you know an embarrassing moment (we all have them) that was created by blindness. It felt great to take myself lightly and realize it was okay. I've giggled a lot with family, friends, co-workers, and even strangers. To be real, yes I've cried too and also felt some times of overwhelm. However the ratio is much, much more laughter to be sure.  As I reflect back I add lightly to my mantra.

Most frequently/random asked questions about Cricket (my guide dog) and me and retinitis pigmentosa/blindness:

How old is my guide dog? Cricket is six as of June 4th. She is healthy and doing well of which I am so very grateful! I have now walked with a guide dog for fifteen years -- boy, does time fly.  Sometimes I laugh at the times when I may be navigating in an unfamiliar terrain and out of nowhere comes the question - how old is your dog? Sometimes it takes me by surprise and I have to stop and think a moment. Six. At times, this becomes a person helpful to answering my next question - where is the nearest restroom.

How do you get to work? This is one that sometimes at the most random times someone will ask me!   I am fortunate right now that majority of the time my husband Steve is able to take me and pick me up from work. We generally talk about our schedule the night before. If he has meetings and is unable to, then often a friend or cab driver.   For years, I used public transportation. For the past six years our home is not accessible to the public transportation. Right now, we also have the fun to have our daughter/soninlaw as backup drivers.

How do you run? I use a tether, a stretchy rope that my friend (and friend that we ran two 1/2 marathons together last year) Shannon made for me. (You can check out her latest post to for a heartwarming message on Christmas. Love her.)   My running partner puts one end around in arm and I hold on to the other end.  I am able to follow the cue through this tether as well as some verbal cues. I sometimes wonder if I would have the motivation to run on my own if I could? Not sure because for me I love the social part of running.

What can you see? The best way to describe these days is a fuzzy dime and everything around is black. I just bought some new simulated goggles. As you know, a picture is worth a thousand words. Sometimes putting on some goggles that simulate is easier to understand than explaining a fuzzy dime!

I am so excited for 2012. There are some really great happenings to look forward to - some vacations planned, Natalie's graduation, having   Natalie, Adam, and Dahlia and Kendall close by, some new and repeat events at our office, back on the bike in a few months, another 1/2 or full marathon, I hope and probably some adventures that I am not even aware of yet.   May I live them all with passion, compassion and lightly. In the meantime, enjoying the last few days of 2011.

Mentoring

2011-12-27T07:38:00.004-07:00

I recently had a student come into the office for an interview. We have the opportunity to generally have two students each semester. I said, I want you to think about how we can give back to you and help your learning experience. At first, she began telling me how she could help our agency and such. Yes, I believe she will, but I wanted to know how we could help her. I remember sitting on the other side and still am so grateful to those who mentored me along. I get excited to have students and have that chance to mentor them in the journey and also believe we learn much from them.

I credit one of my mentors in being so instrumental in my becoming a Fellow of Thanatology. I recall him introducing me to someone as one of their premier therapists in my specialty when inside I was thinking -- are you serious? me? The power of someone believing in us is incredible.

As I begin a new semester of 'mentoring' this has me asking - who is your mentor? how have they helped you? what did they do that helped inspire you? helped you believe in yourself?

Running. Boxing. Together.

2011-12-26T08:59:00.001-07:00

We ran this morning. I love my new purple neck/face warmer. I love my new purple jacket. I love my new purple gloves. They won't fit over my brace on my left hand so my old glove on this hand helped me realize the warmth of my new gloves. I love that Steve color coordinated it all! I also was given a new camera. Apparently, my old one didn't take such a clear shot ... seemed okay to me :).

Starting to box up some things this morning. Just stepped on a framed/glass picture of my children through the years with Santa. Its shattered. Sad. The sweet, fun memories of the years are intact.

Absolutely loved time together with my family. The best gift. Touched by the thoughtfulness of my family. Wow. I am blessed.

Kendall just beat me in table tennis 11-9. He gave me a 9-0 headstart :). I guess I'll stick to running, yoga, and tandem cycling for now ... contemplating snow skiing this year.

Holiday Spirit

2011-12-25T10:14:00.010-07:00

Friday my dear friend and I went to a Christmas Carol. It was a very special experience, and we both left feeling we had gained new insight about Scrooge and lessons learned from him and application into our lives (okay, the joys of being a therapist and taking life to a deeper level as some would say :). Lunch afterwards - cozy soup, and an extended lunch meant bringing in Cricket's fleece so she could also be comfortable during lunch time. We were finishing up lunch and a woman came over and handed me some Gourmet Tails treats for Cricket. She said, something like ... I've been watching your dog and just wanted to make sure she got a treat for her good work and sweetness. So she had walked over to Petco and purchased a little package of treats for Cricket and come back to give it to us!

I was touched by her kindness - her efforts (Petco is across the parking lot from Paradise) her reaching out to a stranger with the simple message of caring. She gave us the treats, wished us Merry Christmas, we thanked her and she left. It was very touching and such a kind, heartfelt gesture.

(Note: as a guide dog Cricket does not get treats from others - I was appreciative that this lady gave me the treats and asked if I could give them to Cricket if/when it was okay. She will share the treats with her buddy, Dahlia .)

Grateful

2011-12-23T15:00:00.000-07:00

We will have all our family together this Christmas including a Christmas Eve with my parents/siblings/all the kids/little greats and my grandma together. So cool! Is there a better gift?

Our cute little Dahlia (Natalie and Adam's pug) is adjusting to the colder weather in style. It is joyful after four and a half years of them living in California to have them so close. We are relishing in the moments of family time.

The song, Grateful, is one of my favorites. Enjoy and hope you have a happy holiday season.

Seven Simple Gifts

2011-12-22T21:08:00.000-07:00

Recently I received a very sweet email from a leader of a group I belong to stating: My wish for each of you during this holiday season and in 2012 is that you enjoy every minute of every day, that you find peace, and when times get tough you find the grace and humor you need to make it through, stronger for the challenge. Thank you T.S. for such a profound message.

She also passed along Denise Bissonenette's Seven Simple Gifts: Not easy to give, splendid to receive. She states, "I ask you dear reader to assess for yourself, what it is like to be on the receiving end of these gifts. Take a moment and consider what it felt like the last time you received the following:

1. Gift of Visibility.Someone making you feel seen and heard in a situation in which you felt invisible;
2. Gift of a heartfelt compliment. A heartfelt compliment that came from someone with no agenda;
3. Gift of Thanks.Genuine thanks and appreciation for something you do every day;
4. Gift of a sincere apology. A sincere apology that helped heal a hurt, heartache or misunderstanding;
5. Gift of Forgiveness. Forgiveness which freed you from the burdens of guilt, blame or shame;
6. Gift of the Benefit of the Doubt. The benefit of the doubt in a situation where you appreciated not being unfairly judged
or criticized;
7. Gift of Kindness. A kindness from someone that touched you deeply.

She states, "it is my fondest hope that recollections of having received each of these gifts from someone at some time in our lives will inspire the giving of these same gifts with wholehearted, wideranging, no holds barrer generosity on our parts. In the words of Sam Levinson, 'The tender loving care of fellow human beings will never become obsolete because people, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed and redeemed. We do this for one another through the gifts of the human spirit.'

Two in One

2011-12-20T22:01:00.001-07:00

This coat is one of my favorite for those cold Utah days. First of all, it brings back sweet memories. I found this coat on a January clearance - $25 dollars at ZCMI. So, if you are from Utah you know its got to be several years old just with that information. I was with my first guide, Pantera who retired five years ago. Pantera and I used to walk through a mall to make our bus transfer. I haven't worked at the Moran Eye Center for eight years. So, doing the math the coat has got to be atleast over eight years old. This old coat was a bargain, is so warm, and is a two in one.

This coat makes a wonderful blanket for Cricket. She really enjoys having something warm to snuggle up to when we are going to be a while (church, dentist, a longer meeting, etc). Today I laid it down at the dentist office and she snuggled right up on it. Its just the right color to hide Cricket hair and make a nice bed for her and then be transformed back into my coat! If you can see her face, you will know she is not impressed that I have asked her to model for this picture.

I love versatile clothes/coats that serve more than one purpose and this coat has done so for many years :).

A thought

2011-12-20T10:10:00.000-07:00

Yoga is not on the agenda with my re-broken left hand. Hopefully by January - perhaps February. I feel very fortunate that it is on my thumb side so walking with Cricket is very doable! Thank heavens!

Below is a thought from the yoga studio in Los Gatos, Breathe, (that I would be visiting often if we lived closer). I was told they still talk about the snoring dog that joined the yoga class back in November!

Keep your flame lit and you will never feel darkness. J. Parker

A Village

2011-12-19T07:06:00.000-07:00

I hope you had a nice weekend! Generally, I like a weekend with family, friends, church, and some nice downtime. After our conference on Friday, it proved to be much downtime. Steve, Kendall and my dad were in Boise at the Utah State Football game. Oh heartbreak. They lost by one point with 13 seconds remaining. Oh so sad. Love our Aggies.

After my seminar on Friday my colleague/dear friend and I were able to spend some time together. She is an incredible friend and wanted to understand further what my journey of Retinitis Pigmentosa was like. As we sat there with her asking me questions, I found myself being so touched by her desire to just understand my world.

Natalie, Adam, and Dahlia are here. We are loving having them with us. Sunday evening was spent decorating gingerbread houses. This picture of our finished homes has me reflecting on the joy of 'a village' of family and friends in our life.

A run this morning in the crisp air with a friend gives me energy to start another week. How was your weekend? What gives you energy for Monday morning?

Mormon Tabernacle Choir. Lights

2011-12-16T06:06:00.002-07:00

Yesterday morning we received a call from some friends that they had two extra tickets to the Mormon Tabernacle Choir Christmas Concert. We were thrilled to join them. We quickly walked through Temple Square without taking a picture! So sad so Cricket and I posed in front of our lights at home.

This was the first time for these friends to see Cricket in action. They had so many great questions - it was fun to share. Funny story about our last flight - going through security. My brace set off the alarm and they did a thorough search. They pointed out to me that Cricket sat and her head followed the TSA's hands every move as I got my search. It was pretty funny.

Happy Weekend!

Cricket and I are off to a seminar with Dr. William Worden with some of my colleagues.

How often ...

2011-12-13T21:45:00.003-07:00

This picture brings a smile remembering us girls shopping during class at Guide Dogs for the Blind. A very important part of the training :).

I have a break in my schedule. There is much I could do at the office but after listening to my voice messages I must pause to celebrate all the kindness in my world. One was a message from one of my fellow students in gdb class almost five years ago. His message celebrated our now seasoned guides' journeys and remembering those first days. I am so grateful for this experience that has expanded my world and friendships.
A reminder to me to make that phone call when you think of someone. How often I think .. oh I should call so and so. He did and made my day.

I went to lunch with a sweet friend that is so organized she realized she would be gone for my birthday so I received a birthday and Christmas gift today. Fun! I enjoy stretching and celebrating the birthday and this is a new stretch :). This sweet friend makes a point that we do lunch each month. Love her effort to stay in touch. How often I think ... I should check in on so and so and go to lunch with them. She does it and makes my day!

This is my first post from my iPad. I love my iPad in it's cute red case :). It did take me a bit to master the calendar. Thank you, thank you to my two clients that were double booked. They were kind and patient! How often Steve is so kind and patient in this instance finding just the right cover and keypad for me ... thank you my dear.

There was the kind xray tech at the doctors office who was so nice to cricket as she took her away from the xray area. Cricket knows the drill well. This is our fifth xray on my left hand in the past two months. She is out of the range but close enough to see me. She watches by the tech while they take the pictures. When she hears the click she knows we will be reunited. He will check on the progress again in three weeks. This black brace may just become part of my wardrobe. I wonder if they also come in brown or camel? Her kindness and care for Cricket while I was getting x-rayed was very sweet and I reflected on how often this occurs with people. I hope I remembered to thank her.

A new picture from a dear friend hanging in my dog/laundry/office room. I keep thinking of it and warms my heart of her incredible kindness to me and my family.
Thank you dear friend. I love you so very much and the quote: Hold on to a true friend with both hands. Nigerian Proverb. I'm holding on!

How often do I slow down and thank those who are so very kind to me. It is truly incredible. Thank you for reading my ramblings!

That's my girl

2011-12-11T13:58:00.005-07:00

Cricket was fabulous on our journey to San Francisco. I think we are grounded now for a while ... oh, we shall see :). We are always up for an adventure. What can I say? The gift of a guide dog is a gift of adventure.

Cricket navigated the trolley, bus, bart, and lots of walking. She experienced protesters/sirens, crowds, a few barking sea lions all in stride. Although, she does seem to be enjoying a quiet weekend of getting caught up on her sleep!

We were so fortunate to stay in a lovely hotel overlooking Union Square. The first night we were tired and went to bed early like 9 pm! We were hoping that the change in time would lend to her settling in for the night knowing that we would have an early morning wake up call from Cricket. Just after midnight she let us know she needed to go out. A sweet dog sigh on the side of the bed saying ... gotta go out. The city was bustling and full of energy. By our second return to our hotel room she knew the way. Find the room, Cricket. That's my girl!

view from our hotel room

The lady ringing the Salvation Army bell at the Bart Station had such a beautiful voice as she was singing Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer.

Natalie, Adam and Dahlia will be coming into town soon. We are SO excited!

Party favor at the luncheon - sticker that said: Wag more. Bark Less. Great message, don't you think!

Guide Dogs for the Blind Holiday Luncheon

2011-12-08T23:36:00.001-07:00

We just returned from the GDB Holiday Luncheon in San Francisco. It was a very special event and my heart is full of gratitude. I will share more ... for now a few pics (because I seem to enjoy much more blogging about travels than doing the laundry that comes with a trip).

Very grateful for a supportive husband, incredible parents and my amazing aunt and uncle that joined us as well. Wow. I am touched by their kindness.

Supportive texts, emails, blog comments from my sweet family and friends meant the world to me.

Thank you. I hope you have a wonderful weekend.

What obstacles?

2011-12-05T21:29:00.003-07:00

Steve said as I left to go running, you look like a serious runner or like you are ready to go rob a bank :). I opted for the first choice. It was very chilly so another layer and glasses over the eyes were added after this picture was taken. It was awesome. I get to share soon about the impact of a guide dog in my life. Wow. Well, (sorry to my running partner), it helped me believe that obstacles (including cold weather) are something to glide around or in this case bundle up. So when she says, do you think we should run today - I say YES!

Shopping for Shoes

2011-12-04T19:50:00.002-07:00

Are you a shoes shopper? My shoes are generally pretty basic with comfort and ease at the top of the list. This week we will be attending the GDB Holiday Luncheon and so we needed a nice, dressy pair of black shoes.

Circumstances changed last Wednesday and so our morning was free. We had planned to get together with some dear friends of 40 plus years but that didn't happen at the last minute so Cricket and I went to Gateway to do a little Christmas shopping before our afternoon/evening appointments.

One of my colleagues asked -You seriously go to Gateway by yourself? Yes! How?

That seemed all I needed for a good blog post, right!

I love Gateway shopping for a few reasons. Location. Steve works downtown so it is an easy place for him to drop me off when our schedules match. This time they matched for a ride back to the office. I called a cab to Gateway. I can asked to be dropped off at a specific location such as in front of Barnes and Noble and then tell Cricket to find the door and she will do so. It is also an easy place for anyone that I may want to meet, a friend or a professional associate for lunch. Familiarity. We know the area well. Some would say we know our way to Ann Taylor Loft a little too well. I walked in and they said they'd missed me. Really? It hasn't been that long! But, you know how it is when a friend misses you - you try to go back and visit soon. Ben's Cookies also wondered about us so we checked in to see if they have their lemon cookies (yes, they do!) and diet coke. So my other shopping tip as a blind shopper is have a plan. Its a little more stressful to wander - browse isn't a real great option so I like to be organized before I go. My quest was to find something for Lisa for our gift exchange and also shoes. Lisa loves notecards so I planned to stop in at Barnes and Noble. They have a fun notecard section. I had her business card so they could help me match up some fun cards. We found a few other fun items. The clerk was so helpful in trying to find a bag that would help me carry it easily over my shoulder. I told Steve another one of the blessings of a guide dog is one of my hands is full and can't carry as many shopping bags. I walked into Famous Footwear. I love how they are so friendly and say hi. This helps me know where they are at so I can talk to them and ask them specifically for what I am looking for. So, I told them I was shopping for some black dress shoes. They directed me to the area and helped me find two options in my size and then they left me. I tried them on and got the giggles a bit as I asked Cricket to walk a little ways with me in both pairs. They have to pass the Crickers test. I then sent a text with a picture from my phone to my friend for her vote. She is the friend that had found my dress so I knew she would know just which shoes would work the best. She voted for these which was great as they were more comfortable, too.

Sorry Cricket. She didn't seem that amused that I was taking a picture as she was trying to have a nap! Cricket, I wasn't that amused earlier when I was trying to take a nap and you came by the side of the bed to let me know it was dinner time.

When I get tired of shopping I set down and try on shoes. Unknown but a quote that seemed to fit :).

Perspective

2011-12-02T15:49:00.002-07:00

My shopping for shoes post will have to wait :) Yesterday our area we love and call home was impacted by unreal winds - strongest winds since 2000. You can check out the forces of hurricane-force winds and the details of our area's destruction here . Our home was not affected except power outage for about 18 hours. Our office lost some shingles and also power outage for the day. We stayed warm when we returned home with our snuggle bug, blankets, and our fireplace.

Our usual candle decorations were used to add some light for the evening.

Crazy side story on this day - I used the day to do some cleaning at my office and had a really productive day .. except I fell and looks like broke two bones in my hand/wrist so yes, I'm back in a brace. I did recommit to using a cane in my office and was reminded even for those short distances when you forget you placed a pile of boxes somewhere. Fortunately, can walk with Cricket for short and important walks :). Fortunately, it can fit over the dress for the holiday luncheon next week which reminds me I have fun shoes to post about in my Shoe Shopping adventure.

My thoughts are with all who were affected as clean up begins. We drove past our old house in Centerville city which reports $8 million in damage thus far - winds reported up to 102 mph. Our old homes fence and shingles were fortunately intact.
We had RSI Christmas lunch. We had a gift exchange and had so much fun sharing. I was so touched by everyone's thoughtful gifts for each other. It felt like a grounding lunch after such an ungrounding past couple days. Some in our office still don't have power at their homes.

After the Muppet Movie (so cute with some pretty great messages!) we went to the Festival of Trees. This is the beautiful tree created by a dear friend in memory of her three children: Rock -n- Read. I found myself just standing there and thinking about them and such a place to put life into perspective.

Best wishes for your weekend. What is happening in your part of the world?

Open Doors. Retinitis Pigmentosa.

2011-11-30T10:00:00.001-07:00

I recently was asked So what does a guide dog mean to you? I was surprised as I started to cry. In that moment I couldn't quite put it into words. Let me try.

Fifteen years ago as my husband was ready to leave for work, I sat on the steps of our home, our two children still sleeping and told him I feel trapped. I had lost most of my vision to retinitis pigmentosa and had gone from being an active person to cautiously, slowly walking only where I needed to go. In that moment I saw only the doors that had closed in my life.

As I ask Cricket to 'find the door', I am so grateful for the many doors that a guide dog has opened up in my life. It really is hard to put into words. Its easier to just be living and loving life thanks to a guide dog! What I recognize too is that a guide dog has opened my life for the times when she isn't by my side, too. The sense of passion and excitement with a guide dog has become a part of my life in other aspects. As I tell clients ... a small victory spills (I use high vocabularly :) into other areas of our lives. This morning I ran 2 - 5Ks with two friends at different times to make a 10K. I absolutely loved it. I recognize that in training with my first guide .. the trainers were incredible to think outside the box in different challenges. It was a message of I can do it -- let's get creative on how. Thank you!

I am so grateful for those who support Guide Dogs for the Blind in so many ways.

Oh the magic of a little puppy! The caption belowfrom GDB warmed my heart. I am so grateful for the connection of not only a guide dog but the many wonderful people in the Guide Dog community that have blessed our family.

Circle the Wagons

2011-11-29T22:49:00.003-07:00

Cricket and I had the chance to spend a couple hours with Vickie Walker today. It was a beautiful experience. I was so appreciative of her coming to our office to visit and share. Take a moment to read about Circle the Wagons. Wow.

Gifts. The Red Striped Shirt.

2011-11-29T06:37:00.000-07:00

How is your holiday shopping coming? I am in serious need of sitting down and getting organized! Thus far, I'm going from one event to the other quickly getting a gift as needed. Office party this Friday - need a $15 gift for a colleague. I keep thinking of her and that something fun gift ... so far, I know it includes a 6-pack of Mtn. Dew!

This red and white striped shirt Steve has on this recent picture with Natalie and Kendall has been on so many vacations. After realizing it was appearing in so many pictures on vacations, now it is saved just for vacations. Really, I think its about 20 years old! One of these days ... I want to put together a book: The Journeys of the Red Striped Shirt.

This picture of my dear family just brings a smile to my face.

Cute story. On our recent return flight from San Diego, as we were asking for our seat assignment, the attendant at the gate told us she recognized Cricket and her rug! Cricket's fleece is her place of comfort. She knows when that is put down on the floor of the airplane, she's in her spot.

Black Friday & Blouse

2011-11-27T15:26:00.002-07:00

This year was our first adventure with 12:01 PM Black Friday. Crazy. Wild. Fun. Super busy. Somehow, I thought it would be much quieter than the early morning rush that Natalie and I have ventured out in years past. Ironically, my favorite bargain find was this black blouse (Ann Taylor) to replace an older version that I have worn and worn. (This skirt is Pantera shopping/guiding days so at least seven years old. I love it.)

Our 'Black Friday team' of Natalie and Adam , niece, Emily and me (and Cricket) had an adventure at the San Ysidro Outlets - south of San Diego! Cricket guided a little sleepily and seemed to wonder - now why are we shopping at 1 am! Because we are adventurous, Crickers, I told her!

Happy Thanksgiving

2011-11-24T06:09:00.008-07:00

Happy Thanksgiving. My heart is so full of gratitude. I hope each of you have a wonderful day... weekend.

Big Question?

Should we wake up Cricket to hit the sales tonight at midnight or early Friday morning?

The Little Things

2011-11-22T07:10:00.000-07:00

Just came back in from a run with a friend that haven't seen in a while. So much fun to enjoy her company and also come back from a chilly morning, warm! The hot water is ready for a bath, and I find myself reflecting on the quote: Most human beings have an almost infinite capacity for taking things for granted. Aldous Huxley. I don't think much about the nice hot water ... until the heater goes out. The warmth of the house is a given ... the electricity ... list goes on, right. Healthy Cricket that greets me at the door when I returned.

My gratitude journal today reminds to notice those little things that can easily be taken for granted. They abound all around.

Beauty. Right where you are.

2011-11-21T10:29:00.000-07:00

Yesterday in church a woman shared ... she had been visiting a location in Arizona and was told one thing that was a must to see was the sunset at a certain location. They planned their day around this event and when they arrived the area was packed with people also visiting to see the sunset. She said the sunset was beautiful but realized that the sunset outside her own window in Bountiful, Utah is as beautiful. She indicated she was often too busy to stop and enjoy that beauty in her own front yard. Often when someone comes to our home to visit if they are at that time of day and looking to the west, they will comment on the beauty of our sunset. I thought it was a good message to remember to stop and enjoy the beauty right here amongst us.

My friend and I ran a 5K this morning. It was a beautiful morning. It was raining. We were the only ones on the road and she said to our right at one point was a deer just sitting there. Beautiful right here.

Gratitude is when memory is stored in the heart and not in the mind.
Lionel Hampton

Trusting. Retinitis Pigmentosa.

2011-11-19T20:37:00.001-07:00

In Santa Cruz, we visited the Natural Bridges. When someone is describing, I try to visualize it in my mind. It sure helps when you can touch to get an understanding of the formation. How cool that Steve found a rock similar shape to the Natural Bridge formation.

I've been searching for just the right dress for the Guide Dogs for the Blind Holiday Luncheon in San Francisco in a couple weeks. I asked one of my friends to be on the lookout for something that she thought I might like. She found a dress that I am so excited about and earrings that are so fun. As she was trying to explain the earrings to me, I said it will be quicker if I just feel them and get a sense of the design which apparently has the same design as the dress! The dress is being altered. Last night Steve and I went to the mall and I tried on about 20 dresses, sigh, so I was extra excited (Steve too!) when my friend found this one that is just right. It is so helpful to have a few people I really trust to help me with shopping for clothes.

Grocery shopping today. I had more cash in my wallet than I like to carry around and so used it to pay for the groceries today. I think I've forgotten how to count out cash. It seemed to take forever to get it all counted out with my money organization system. I think I'll stick to swiping a card as often as possible.

Trust was a part of the yoga retreat. Trust in the unknowing -- another lesson learned from Retinitis Pigmentosa (and so much other teachers in life, right!).

Trying to stay in Thanksgiving mode ... but the Nativity sets are moving in.

Butterfly, Tree, & Tias Wisdom

2011-11-17T18:18:00.001-07:00

We had the chance to visit Natural Bridges and go to the Butterflies. We spoke in our 'butterfly voices' and enjoyed the beauty of the quietness. (Apparently, there were butterflies flying above :).

Advice from a Butterfly (Ilan Shamir)

Let your true colors show

Get out of your cocoon

Take yourself lightly

Look for the sweetness in life

Take time to smell the flowers

Catch a breeze!

We stayed in a cabin and reflected on

Advice from a Tree (Ilan Shamir)

Stand Tall and Proud

Sink your roots into the earth

Be content with your natural beauty

Drink plenty of water

Enjoy the view!

Cricket was pretty intrigued with the sea lions. We enjoyed walks along the beach.

Tias Little was an amazing yoga instructor. His gentle teaching and instruction was awesome. There was a class of about 100, yet he connected with each and our individual challenges. Some of the poses were not so easy to describe and his assistants were ever so helpful. I met a woman whose son had RP. We connected. I hope our paths cross again.

Tomorrow is already Friday! I'll leave you with a quote from the Yoga Retreat:

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and

try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and

like books that are written in a very foreign tongue.

Rainer Maria Rilke

Reflecting

2011-11-16T17:39:00.001-07:00

We're back. Did you miss us? We have much to share ...

... on the way home, got notice that I need to go into work. Guess blogging and laundry will have to wait. Smooth uneventful flights for us.

Lucky Day

2011-11-11T11:11:00.006-07:00

Cricket girl is about to go on Flight #60 on 11/11/11 with a flight time of 11!

A quote from our yoga retreat newsletter:

As long as our orientation is toward perfection or success, we will never learn about unconditional friendship with ourselves, nor will we find compassion. "

~Pema Chödrön

Happy Weekend, my friends.

Therapist's Thoughts: S.T.O.P.

2011-11-10T09:11:00.001-07:00

Yesterday, Cricket and I had the opportunity to demo what it is like walking with a guide dog.   We walked to a curb where Cricket stops, looks up at me to wait for the signal that I have acknowledged the curb and ready to proceed.   The one walking with us thought this was especially intriguing and wanted to learn more. This simple gesture of stop - helps immensely.   He acknowledged her sweet face looking up at me as if 'checking in' which yes, she is doing very much so. She is waiting to know that I have acknowledged the curb, aware of where we are at and ready to proceed. When this occurs, I get the chance to stop, breathe, and acknowledge Cricket and to say thank you or good girl in her language and proceed.

This reminded me of a discussion for our Mindfulness Class Today. STOP = S = Stop. T = Take a breath. O = Observe. P = Proceed.  As stated in A Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction Workbook by Bob Stahl and Elisha Goldstein, by taking a moment to stop, take a breth, and observe whatever is happening, including your own thoughts, emotions and sensations, you can reconnect with your experience and then proceed and respond more effectively.   One client told me she had begun to schedule for now until it becomes a practice, an alarm that reminds her periodically through the day to Stop.

I will be at Yoga Retreat that I will learn more skills and gain a greater understanding of myself. Love it.

In answer to your comments and emails (THANK YOU!) about my post yesterday:

Yes, I was so very fortunate that my wrist healed up so quickly. I look forward to our next visit to St. George where it is still warm enough to get back on the bike!

As far as falling - I mentioned that I fall a lot. Its not a big deal. I just go at a fast clip and sometimes trip and stumble WHEN I am not using my sweet guide dog or cane. I get multitasking and forget that blindness is part of who I am and that I am not getting information visually. I at times, get in my comfort zone at home or the office and need to remind myself to use STOP and slow down.

And yes, I will share my embarrassing experience. So far, I am glad that I have been able to provide laughter to all my colleagues.

I loved our run this morning! I know running isn't for everyone and when a client says I ought to be exercising - I ask what do you want to do?   What feels good to your body? Throw out the 'should's'.    I find yoga, cycling and running nurturing and loving to my body. The day that I don't enjoy the run, I think I'll push the snooze button. I'm super excited to try to remember what downdog in yoga! Just my random thoughts on a Thursday morning.    Hope you have a good day!

Freedom

2011-11-08T22:31:00.001-07:00

Exciting news. They took off my cast today, new x-rays showed it was healing better than the doctor expected. I'm back to a brace. He said the brace is mainly if I fall (ha, I do that on frequent ocassions). So, I figured that there wasn't falling going on when walking with Cricket. We went for a walk today. I felt like I had my eyes back. I was able to hold the harness regularly and we could walk back at our normal pace. (For the past five weeks, its been a more tentative walk and just the bare minimum to get from point a to point b). I'm cleared to go on the yoga retreat this weekend. Yes!

This sweater had my colleagues chatting - oh, they are so much fun! They liked the zipper in the back. I do too. Cricket and I aren't so comfortable turning to our backside for pics :).

I had one of the most embarrassing blind experiences thus far yesterday. I can't quit giggling about it and not sure if I can post about it and totally put it out there, yet.

How I feel physically at this moment

2011-11-07T21:18:00.001-07:00

I am enjoying my little journal of gratitude. It has some unique ways of looking at gratitude, blessings, savoring, appreciating and such! Today: Ask yourself how you feel physically right at this moment. Then, make a list of all that comes to mind to make you happy in this moment.

I chose to do this experience after just coming back from a 5K run this morning. I feel grateful for the joy of running with a friend and getting caught up on our lives. I feel grateful to be able to hear our conversation. I feel grateful to be aware of the pull on the tether that lets me know we are steering clear from ice and other obstacles on the road. I feel such gratitude that I am able to run. Physically, what a blessing to not have any aches and pains as I run! I came back from the run with snow on the ground and my body so warm and sweating. I recognized that I embrace winter a little more when I am active. It doesn't put me in the hibernate mode as much. Cricket is so proud of me. I walked into the house with excitement for the holiday season. I wanted to go downstairs and pull out all my nativity sets. There wasn't time as I needed to get ready for work. I feel grateful for a career that I love. I feel grateful that this holiday season we will be surrounded by our family. I feel grateful for Steve being able to take me to work and helping set up the new chairs at the office.

Thoughts

2011-11-05T10:33:00.001-06:00

Our quick trip to Oregon to the Guide Dogs for the Blind Fall Luncheon was delightful. So very grateful we were able to do so. Cricket was able to spend a little playtime with her friends: Culver, Desma, and Dakota. So very special and they are so welcoming to her including offering her a nice fluffy bed for the night.

Debi, Becky and Cricket at the Luncheon

Does it surprise you that I shed tears hearing other grads share their amazing stories of what a guide dog has meant to them? And then puppies delivered while Katy Perry song in the background. Loved it. Danelle was the keynote. Checkher out.We were able to touch her Olympic medal! Amazing woman and thrilled to think of getting to know her better. There's even talk of tandem biking together with our husbands. Skiing - perhaps. Wow!

I get to be a part of the Holiday Luncheon in San Francisco next month. Will I see any of you there? Stories, memories, SO MUCH gratitude for Guide Dogs for the Blind and all involved have been flooding my brain. This weekend, I hope to get some of those thoughts into my ipad.

Friendship. Flights 58 & 59.

2011-11-03T11:22:00.000-06:00

This cute dog is who I put my trust in safe travels. It works so well!

The suitcase is out and Cricket is staying close by. She's brought all her bones in to help entertain her while she stays watch over the suitcase til we leave!

Quick little girls trip to visit our dear friend Debi and attend the Fall Guide Dog Luncheon This is our fifth year ... now, that is a special tradition!

I'm a little nervous about the whole security check through, broken arm and such. But, as Steve often tells me - there's just not much that stops you. He's learned to just step out of the way or hop on and enjoy the ride :). We have a pretty good system at the airport. He'll drop me off, with Cricket, carry-on and ticket in hand and from our drop off point, I simply walk straight to security. If needed, he can walk me to the gate or I'll ask for assistance.

Happy Weekend!

Wash those negative self thoughts away.

2011-11-02T22:35:00.000-06:00

I think many would agree, seventh grade for a young girl can be challenging. Today a young client came in and she shared that she sat alone at lunch. Breaks my heart. It makes me want to return to school just to be friendly to all. Anyway, after a hard lunch of sitting alone - AGAIN. She wrote on her hand .. u r not cool. She came in and told me this was on her hand. We talked about the hurt of sitting alone at lunch and then the added pain of being so mean to herself and writing negative messages on her hand about herself. Ouch! So, I pulled out three choices of soap for her to choose from ... different fun scents - cherry, strawberry, and apple! She chose cherries. I then invited her to go wash her hand off. Get rid of that negative message about herself. We then played some pretty music and I shared some positive qualities I saw in her and then said - its even more powerful when we feel and recognize our own strengths. She wrote something else on her hand. I love horses. Simple but a good start in seeing her inner strengths, likes, and uniqueness. We pulled out a page that we labeled Celebrating ___________ (her name). I invited her to have this list be to 25 positives by next week. She smiled her beautiful smile as she left.

I savored this experience.

Beautiful Things & Savoring the Day.

2011-11-02T00:10:00.001-06:00

My gratitude journal is fun. Today: pick out three simple things in your day that are beautiful. Take time to notice and appreciate them in the moment, then, when you get home, put them down in your journal (or blog). So many but here's three.

A friend stopped in today and gave me such a genuine, kind hug. It really felt beautiful. I found myself just stopping and really appreciating her in that moment.

Steve and I (and Cricket) enjoyed My Fair Lady tonight. The story line ... hmmm. The music - fun and beautiful. Steve holding my hand on one side and Cricket putting her paw on my lap on the other side. Beautiful :).

My new jeans. Suzette, thank you for the find. Mom, thank you for hemming them. I am loving them. They are so comfortable and beautiful. I found myself just appreciating finding a pair of jeans that I love that are dressy and comfortable. Funny side note - I wore this white jacket all day because I could not get it off over my cast! It just took Steve and I quite some effort to get it off ... guess it will be on hold for 8 more weeks! A few silly pictures to demo our efforts

This next one sounds fun: Savor Something. Stay in the shower for an extra few seconds, or take a moment to appreciate the smell of your hot chocolate before you take a first sip. Try to elongate the pleasant moments of your day, no matter how small. I love the word Savor.

I Appreciate Feelings. Retinitis Pigmentosa.

2011-11-01T12:26:00.007-06:00

I love November. Halloween is over. There is optimism in the air that we will have a short winter :), and it is a season where appreciation, gratitude, and blessings are emphasized. So cozy too with anticipation of family coming, a nice warm fireplace and a cute puppy.

One of the journals that I am using in November that I will be sharing on my blog is: Gratitude - A Journal by Catherine Price. She's real. She starts by sharing a technique learned from meditation teacher, James Baraz: Take a few deep breaths and try to identify how your mind and body are actually feeling. Are you stressed? Angry? Frightened? Anxious? Without putting a story on it, try to just allow yourself to experience the actual sensations in your body and to give the feeling itself a name. (Research validates how just this piece of work can help us immensely).    Then, spend five minutes or so writing about how this emotion resonates in your body. Allow yourself to experience whatever emotions have surfaced.

Halloween. It is my least favorite holiday.  I have embraced it through the years by making sugar cookies - doing fun things with our kids (hoping not to pass on my feelings about the holiday on to them). I had a great childhood. When I reflect back on memories that were difficult they are often associated with Halloween and nighttime experiences prior to the understanding and diagnosis of Retinitis Pigmentosa.   Back in the day, my parents weren't getting clear answers on my vision despite their incredible persistence. Forty years ago it wasn't understood or easily diagnosed.   (Retinitis Pigmentosa begins with night blindness and often as was my case, I had excellent acuity 20/20.   Many don't understand what they are NOT seeing. How do you tell someone you don't see something when you don't even really know that you are supposed to be seeing it?) Once I could name it and claim it and have the tools to help me and help those around me understand ... so much easier.   For some reason last night the memories of being the pre-teen girl trick or treating and the worry of getting to the next house without running into something or tripping; the girl at the high school football game when it became dark; the girl on the date at the haunted house, the little girl performing her dance recital and being worried about that time between getting off the stage and to where my mom was waiting.   You know that time of the lights going dim. Super tricky time for someone with Retinitis Pigmentosa that may have some useable vision in the day often becomes blind without the skills to manage in the dusk or dark.   So, last night our Halloween was quiet and cozy and the dark house on the street. (When we are in the back of our house - it can look like no one is home).  We laughed as I said, it never crossed my mind not to go to the event that I may have felt a little overwhelmed about ... somethings don't change - now, I go but have the ease of the tools and support that are available to me. I happily go in the dark. This changed really when I walked the night route with my first guide dog, Pantera.  I remember calling Steve and my parents very excited telling them I walked several blocks independently in the dark.   How do you articulate the gift of a guide dog in giving a young mom the gift of freedom, confidence, and yes even willingness to enjoy a dark Halloween evening with her kids!

So, last night I went to bed early.  I felt tired after processing my emotions! Gosh, this is heavy duty. I practiced self-compassion like I teach my clients. No wonder they are exhausted at times! And as I was telling one of my colleagues today, this self-compassion therapy really works!   I got in my favorite sweats and enjoyed laughter with my sweetheart.

Today is a new day. I indeed feel such gratitude for my life and all the joy in each day.  In reflecting for an upcoming opportunity to share about what a guide dog has meant in my life, I appreciate the feelings that arose last night - they will help in writing the introduction of my talk :).

Presenting. Remembering. Loving.

2011-10-30T13:04:00.002-06:00

Presenting. Steve and I had the opportunity to give a presentation to a church group on Nurturing Our Marriage. We had fun. Cricket sat next to the bishop most of the time and was cute (and a little distracting). Next presentation is on Guide Dogs. I am excited to share and tell you all about it! I will be doing much pondering and reflecting on my blessed journey with Guide Dogs for the Blind.

I realized when we got home and was typing in the date that today is Pantera's day. (my first guide dog - worked til she was 11 - died at 12 1/2 - very fortunate) She would of been 16 years old. Sweet girl. I made many dog bone sugar cookies for that birthday girl over the years. Sorry, Cricket you get store bought cookies for your friends ... but you have a blog and pictures on the computer? You both are so deeply loved. The picture below and our family pics in 2007 are the only ones I have of Pantera on the computer. A project has me needing to change that soon!

Loving this beautiful Fall Day. We're going to go for a walk shortly and enjoy the crispness in the air.

Smile

2011-10-28T19:55:00.000-06:00

We ran this morning. It was chilly. It was a little tricky to get my jacket and gloves over this cast. We did it and I sure love how I feel when I come back from a run. I want to sign up for the St. George 1/2 Marathon in January. I need a goal to help me get up in the morning and run. I don't have someone else that wants to run that far with me that lives close by...one of my running friends suggested they could take shifts. Twelve-week training time begins next week -- still hopeful.

These two are off to the Nebraska/Michigan game! Isn't the grandpa/grandson bond fabulous!

Much to smile about. Two of my dear friends from over 40 years ago (did I really say that?) are coming down next week for lunch. Perhaps, Arella's again! Thier raspberry cookie with ice cream ... so yummy, girls! Visiting my dear friend, Debi, next week for the GDB Fall Luncheon in Oregon. The weekend is here. The to do list is long but nothing scheduled tomorrow. That seems like something to smile about, too.

See you in ten

2011-10-27T19:19:00.003-06:00

Our day at the office is complete. We call Steve and he says - see you in ten. I say, thanks love ya. I've probably mentioned on here before. I hear that phrase almost daily and I never tire of it and usually hang up feeling so appreciative of him. Just simply being there for me. This time of year I reflect that 28 years ago was our first date. We were just friends. I was telling him I did not want to go on another date to a haunted house. We went grocery shopping and had fun in something so simple. We continue to have fun in simple things.

Today in our mindful class we talked about ten was a good number to help us be mindful. Count to ten to be aware of your breath. Take ten minutes to reflect, journal, or meditate and be in the moment. Grab a kiss from a puppy if you can.

An excellent website with special items to give to someone who is hurting. We just received our new order of hearts in yellow, green, blue, and red. They have a hole in the heart representing the grief - the emptiness someone is carrying in their heart. The gift of being there for someone is the real present.

On lighter notes: I chose a black cast because I wear black often. Most of this week I've worn brown. These pants are a petite and are too short, if you know of someone that might like them. Have I mentioned how I love my ipad :). Today a seventh grader taught me so much about it. We pulled up a song that she has found so helpful in her journey and listened to the words and then talked about it. Okay, back to my preparation for a Nurturing your Marriage presentation. I love that nurture = nourish and the conference organizers have prepared homemade chocolate chip cookies. Yummy. The theme is: Nurture. Appreciate. Communicate. Steve, Cricket and I will have fun.

Beauty

2011-10-25T20:58:00.001-06:00

We talked about beauty in our teen group. True beauty. A beautiful woman going through much shared this quote with me:

“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”

I spent lunch with two beautiful women. Thank you.

Getting back up

2011-10-24T21:42:00.002-06:00

There is an old Chinese proverb that says,”Fall down 7 times, Get up 8.”

We grow and evolve the most from our mistakes and mishaps than we do our successes. In fact, it can be from our mistakes and mishaps that we, in turn, FIND our success. Taken from the Breathe website. We are going to a yoga retreat sponsored by their studio in November. I am grateful the yoga retreat is only a day and a half, and we are including a few additional days of other activities. I emailed the studio to let them know that I was in a cast and could I still participate? Its a little tricky to do down dog with a cast. I was telling my friend that this broken arm is trickier than blindness. She said, really? I said yes - which one did I have to put my yoga pass on hold for?

I have been shocked by how many people have asked me if I am going to quit riding a bike, because I fell and broke my arm. Are you serious? No! We have spent the past thirteen years having such a great time with our bike - three broken bones in this time frame is not bad! I broke them doing something I love with someone I love. Life is good.

Cozy Autumn Days

2011-10-24T06:13:00.000-06:00

A friend's birthday was a great time to celebrate a beautiful Autumn afternoon on our deck. It was simple. Menu: Costco Broccoli Cheese soup and their french bread with Trop50 Juice. I love pulling out my little plates shaped like hearts for those special moments. It was simply delightful to be outside enjoying the sunshine with a dear friend to celebrate her birthday.

Happy Birthday, Christy.

Sunday, Steve and I enjoyed the same menu except the creamy tomato soup. This fun little pitcher works great for soup for two. Don't want to overdo this cooking :).

I love cozy Autumn days with family and friends. I love that wherever I am, Cricket is nearby. She is just so adorable.

Adventures

2011-10-21T21:58:00.005-06:00

Today Cricket and I had an adventure. Since last Friday with arm in cast we have kept life fairly simple - no extended guide work on our own. Basically, with someone - sighted guide or at the office where it is such familiar terrain and Cricket is often off harness. And, as one of my colleagues said the other day - I know to steer clear when you are walking around without Cricket :). The doctor said use your good judgment - don't overdo and use pain as your guide. If it hurts, don't use that arm anymore. Listen to your body.   When I asked GDB, they also said use your good judgment - listen to your body AND your dog.   Today after our run (no commitment on the 1/2 yet), we started with an appointment at the Apple store for a little more training on the ipad. I have been so impressed with how helpful they have been. If they don't know the answer on the voiceover, they have been willing and interested to find out the answers.  I love how excited they get on realizing the accessibility of their product.  As I was leaving the store getting my ipad in my purse, getting situated to work Cricket a lady came up to me and said - Your life looks really hard.    I smiled and said, yes logistically right now its a little tricky.  I thought she might have offered to give me a hand, but I think she then left. (If you talk to someone who is blind - it helps when you say you are leaving.) I also thought to myself - my life is not any harder than another - just a little more visible. Then, my friend that I was scheduled to do lunch with - called and said she couldn't meet after all - a family emergency that put my little logistics in perspective. So, this left Cricket and I with some time on our own before our ride was scheduled to pick us up. So, what is a Becky & Cricket thing to do? We first walked to Ben's for a lemon cookie and a diet coke and sat outside and enjoyed the sunshine. Sitting there, I had two other people extend their sympathies to me :). A couple things I have noticed - I use my left hand a lot! I didn't realize I use it to swipe my credit card at purchases. That became apparent today when I couldn't do it too well.  Okay, I don't need any clothing items. However, we wear jeans a lot at our office and with the new season change, I realized that a new dressy pair of jeans almost could be a needed item. My friend and one of my running partners told me to go into Lobellas Boutique and gave me awesome directions on how to find it.  Three stores past the apple store and walk in and they will help you. Help they did! She pulled out six pair of jeans, had me try them on and let me know which pair looked the best. Done.

I love that Cricket knows to turn into the restroom past Ann Taylor Loft without being asked. What's going through her head? Okay, Becky had her diet coke now we've got to make a stop at the restroom. Thanks, Cricket. Also, thanks for being six years old and making this broken arm deal as easy as can be with your settled into your ways. Pantera was five when I broke the last arms :) which was a nice age too.    Visualize, by the time we were at the restroom, I am the lady with the broken arm, guide dog, purse with ipad in it (love that it is so much lighter weight than my big planner), and a couple shopping bags.  My phone was in my pocket, and I leaned into it and the speech went into high volume. A little girl asked her mom - what is that lady doing?   Such a good question We had a little chat and laughed at the comedy of it all.

We did some yardwork and then to costco and dicks.  By this point, the arm was letting me know enough - hurting. Listen to the dog? She was still eager to work so it must not be phasing her too much. The words of listen to your body came clear especially as we ran into some good friends - he is a nurse and he said, go home and put your arm up. Okay will do.

Speaking of adventures - we are still dreaming of a choice between two vacations: Scandinavian Tour or Peru Tour.

Last time my casts were on summer months. A new little challenge of casts in colder weather is fitting long sleeves over this bulky cast.

Favorites of the Day ...

2011-10-19T22:04:00.001-06:00

Starting the day running. This morning with two friends. I encouraged them to think of the fun we might have running a 1/2 marathon in St. George in January. They are pondering the thought.

Going back to Marina for my cut and color. I left feeling like 'a million bucks' PLUS being reunited with a friend I missed. A few months ago I had opted to walk to a closer place for a haircut. I'm back to someone I love. My sweet friend thanked me for asking her for a ride. We will work out the transportation every six weeks. So worth it.

Cricket (off-harness in our office) brought a client, who was feeling very sad, one of her bones. The client said - that is just what I needed! Just yesterday, Cricket was validated in a conference on the value of a dog in therapy. She is holding her head high.

One of my favorites - Victor Frankl. Favorite insight of his for the day:

Between stimulus and response there is a space.

In that space is our power to choose our response.

In our response lies our growth and our freedom.

Favorite surprise of the day - A sweet friend from Nebraska sent Kendall a Nebraska shirt. He's going to a football game there with his grandpa in a couple weeks. He was touched by her kindness, and this mom sure was as well. Thanks, Kay.

Running. Driving. Retinitis Pigmentosa.

2011-10-18T22:05:00.005-06:00

Thanks so much for your kindness and well wishes on my broken wrist.   Adjusting and even able to do short working areas with Cricket. Typing for too long is painful so I'll be brief :).  We have still been running - although I think in the morning I will use the other hand to hold on. I'm so used to my left hand being used for guiding that its hard to switch! However, I bumped my sweet guide runner/and friend with my cast and that doesn't seem okay to do! We'll see how running on the other side works out for us. The nurse had three rules for my cast: 1) don't get it wet, 2) don't put anything down it, 3) don't hit anyone with it. Well, the last one is tricky as sometimes I just bump into things .. doing my best!

Today I attended a conference on Trauma with six of my colleagues.  They are the best!   I rode in with one that requested that I be able to direct us to the location. I had the directions, and we found the conference without a problem.  As we left for lunch, they began to ask me some questions about when I quit driving. None of them knew me back almost 20 years ago when I turned in my restricted driver's license. I don't miss driving. I miss the freedom/flexibility that it gives one. However,  I don't really get caught up in the what ifs or how my life would be easier if I could drive.   My cup is really overflowing.   Many days transportation is not a big deal... it is simply coordinating with husband, then cab driver, then friends, sometimes like tomorrow morning I'm fortunate to have one of my kids that can help.  When I first had to quit driving, I had a group of ladies that offered to help me get to and from work for a while. They were all busy moms and a few times they forgot it was 'their' day.  I had a part time job not too far from our home and so once I gained mobility skills - cane travel it was not a problem. It is funny - I don't remember years later who forgot - they were ten of my dearest friends and I recall how touched I was that they would pull together a carpool list for ME! What I do remember is the inner strength that I developed as I realized that I could do it -- I really could get through this and on the few times one of them forgot and I walked home I gained some confidence.
Current read for a presentation I get to give about our office: Learning to Laugh when you feel like Crying; Embracing Life After Loss by Allen Klein. Its a good read. From the book on gaining inner strength:

I ... walked for miles at night along the beach,
writing bad blank verse and searching endlessly
for someone wonderful who would ... change my life.
It never crossed my mind that person could be me.
Anna Quindlen, American author

Today, Black cast - brown outfit. Aside from my colleagues psycho -analyzing my choice of black for a cast color (all in good fun), I'm good with it. The joy of working with therapists ... are you in a dark mood, Becky? are you feeling angry? No - promise! It just felt like a neutral - match almost anything color? It doesn't quite stand out as much as my two red casts eleven years ago! (This wasn't too brief!)

Update

2011-10-16T17:46:00.003-06:00

Friday my left hand was casted. I broke the scaphoid bone which my doctor gently said 'in older people' takes up to 12 weeks to heal. Because of where it is they wrap the thumb 'to try to help you behave' and keep it aligned to heal. Missing all that a left moveable hand/arm helps with in my life including blogging about my life (I'll find a way!) and walking freely with my sweet guide dog, Cricket. In the meantime, she will keep her second job as a good therapy dog at the office, while I use my cane and sighted guide.

Beautiful St. George this weekend including a performance of Grease with my parents, Steve and Kendall. Natalie and Adam were going to join us, but if you read -- good things to come meant Natalie needed to be back in San Diego by Saturday for class.

I was hoping to get on the bike, but Steve said no. What's up?

I don't like my last hair cut - too heavy in the front for me. I am looking forward to a new cut and color soon. I had a new black/white sweater to wear for the Grease performance, but it wouldn't fit over my cast. Oh, the fashion challenges of a broken arm :).

Yi (eye) ppee

2011-10-12T22:08:00.004-06:00

My phone read an email this morning that began Yippee ...pronouncing Yippee with long i ... so, Y(eye)ppee. I have many things that I am feeling Yippee - exuberant delight.

Awesome meeting at the office with many community agencies today. Cricket and I love sharing our beautiful space with others. I wanted to take a picture of how we set up the room, but it was too late. People started coming. Visualize a combination of yummy, inviting breakfast bagels, muffins and such in baskets and fun notebooks and our pens in a circle, conference style. More details to follow, but it was awesome. (I use the word awesome, a lot I know but I think there is much about life that is just awesome.)

Life is hopping around our house with Natalie in town. Loving it. We had so much fun enjoying yummy food and conversation with our friend Shannon tonight. I had several refills of Diet Coke so the night may be young for me :).

So, turns out my wrist is broken. Cast most likely put on Friday. Short version of perhaps I injured my head as well as my wrist: I was in such 'work mode' on Monday when the er follow-up called to indicate the more extensive x-ray showed fracture .. I told them they had the wrong number. Didn't register that it was me Let's just say my office is having a great time teasing me about this one.

Cricket and I are going to the Guide Dogs for the Blind Fall Luncheon in Oregon! We are so excited! We will be going to the GDB Holiday Luncheon in San Francisco in December, too. Yippee!

What has you feeling, yippee?

Blind Running with a vision

2011-10-10T09:11:00.001-06:00

Suzette and I ran this morning. Such a blessing to be healthy to run and friends who will run with me and the tools to make it possible. Recently a lady I know shouted out to us one day - I'm shocked you are running. My running partner smiled and said, she must not know you very well.

Simple tools to make running fun: A 'blind athlete' vest. This helps someone know that I am blind and to clear the way if needed. A 'tether' held by me and the other end by my guide. It works very simple and similar to how I follow the lead from Cricket. A friend willing to knock on my door and run and talk for 3, 5, 10 miles whatever the route is for the day.

It gives me energy to take on the day. I realize I really want to do another 1/2 marathon and then a marathon.

Lots of Little Things

2011-10-06T21:51:00.006-06:00

Steve's been out of town this week with work.  I miss him!

Missing ...
Him telling me with such enthusiasm each morning - Your husband is the luckiest guy! After 27 years, its still this sweet comment that comes out of the blue at different times, and I smile like its the first time I've heard it :).
Me dumping the clean laundry on the bed and later he has it folded and put away. Its an awesome system!
Having him tell me if this shirt and sweater matches or, giving me a visual and letting me be the judge ... like well, I haven't thought of those colors together but now that you put it together yeah I think it looks good.   Missing him so I put on the Logan High colors ... are they still red and gold? I also pulled out my earrings and necklace that Steve bought me from Greece. Such a fun memory. They have the symbol of 'eternal love' on them and Steve had picked out a really large necklace. The jeweler teased Steve and said - I know you are a man and think bigger is better and showing more love but that necklace will drown your wife's little neck. He was so funny about telling Steve to get me a smaller necklace and that still meant he loved me.

Have I mentioned how he designed our cupboards so it takes a lot of effort for me to bang my head on them! Love him. He kind of goes around making my life easier.
Loading and unloading the dishwasher.  I'm not sure how that routine started years ago, but I like it.
Giggling with him about random silliness.
Singing and dancing in the morning. I may not be as informed on the news of the day, but I love getting ready to music and randomly dancing with Steve when a good song comes on.
I'm looking forward to soon having my best friend back home. Miss him.
We've been asked to give a marriage lesson in church in a few weeks. I think we will have some fun with this assignment and maybe share on the importance of the little things that we can do for each other.

Pedicures tomorrow over the lunch break with a friend. We have much catching up to do! I spent time today encouraging a group to celebrate their victories. Its okay to do. So, I will take a moment and do so before I won't bring it up again :). I received word yesterday that I was accepted as a Fellow of Thanatology.. FT behind my name doesn't mean much to many. There are only two other in my state. It will mean an opportunity to go to Atlanta in March to the ADEC Conference. The big exam three years ago was one of the most extensive that I have ever done. The hours and professional requirements of the past three years was much hard work, but now I'm just feeling joyful. Celebrating my little victory and the continued growth and commitment that will take place through this designation.

Just went on a 'date' with Kendall to get chicken nuggets and ice cream at McDonald's. I have a feeling the run in the morning is going to feel a little slow :), but hearing his chatting about life was worth the treat. We are excited for a visit from Natalie this Sunday! Yippee!

A quote I love - If you are your authentic self, you have no competition. Scott Stratten.

So, ready for this weekend. You?

So sweet

2011-10-04T22:18:00.002-06:00

Thank you so much for your very sweet emails and comments after our bike fall. The people and bike are healing well. We have been doing some - so how did we fall that gave you a black and blue bruise on the side of your right leg? We are celebrating our resilient our bodies are -- they work hard to heal. Hoping to be back out running soon and on the bike next time we are in St. George. I guess today we thought we needed to implement our black brace into the accessories of the outfit. I love this sweater and have it in green, too. Anyone else get more than one of something when they find it fits? I used to do that with shoes or belts but its a little harder to mark and keep them identified. I love this cuddly dog.

This is a busy week at our office which means more downtime for Cricket which is wonderful as I'm supposed to hold off on having her pull me for another week. This is one of Cricket's favorite places at the office.

Remembering our sweet Missy Girl who died a year ago. We love her and miss her.

Had some time this morning to nest for some good things to come! On our last trip to St. George we found this fun clock for our mantle. Shaped like ... a bicycle!

Sweet - Wednesday is another day of clients and also our Mindfulness and Self-Compassion Class. Heavens, I have another visual aid for the week of an injury and being kind to self! The loving-kindness phrase selected for the week: May I and all know the natural joy of being alive.

Crashed. Remember your bike helmet.

2011-10-02T19:04:00.004-06:00

It was a beautiful evening to bike in one of our favorite places - St. George. We had a three-day weekend planned with lots of biking, listening to conference , cheering on my friend who was running the St. George Marathon (I was going to run a portion with her!), some nice walks, lunch with a friend and shopping (of course!). We were finishing up our first (and unfortunately last) ride - we had climbed to the top for this view:

After a nice 25 mile ride, we were heading back to our condo when we hit a tiny wet/mossy part in the gutter as we were going onto the road -- it pulled our bike in and flipped us over. It was such a flukey deal and a reminder how fast those things happen! Steve hit his head hard -- thank heavens for his helmet (that now has a dent), bruised hip, shoulder and lots of scrapes. I landed on my left hand (yes, the one that I hold on to Cricket with) and scraped my knees and hands. (This is our first fall in 11 years. We think we are a pretty good tandem team!) After we pulled out of our mess, we hugged and kissed. Grateful to be okay. We are sore, but feeling very fortunate that it wasn't more serious. Fortunately, I sprained (not broke) my wrist so only a brace for a week or so. Two days later we are feeling new places where we are sore! My neck is so stiff from holding it tight to not hit the road. Steve hit the hardest because he landed first - his poor hip and shoulder!

We came back to our condo bleeding. Cricket rubbed against us and was so concerned that she had blood on her too.

My friend did awesome in the marathon! We cheered from the sidelines. Perhaps, next year we will run? It will be a little while before we are back on the bike. In the meantime, we have memories of a wonderful evening prior to our crash and a reminder to all to wear your bike helmet. Otherwise, I would have been calling 911. We enjoyed some relaxing time (and trying to help each other's aches) and watched lots of episodes of International House Hunters! I did have a moment of overwhelm at the store trying to have Cricket guide me. She seemed to know we were debating on taking her as she slid in front of the door! Steve talked to her and explained the situation and asked if she could pull a little lighter the next couple days. She listened intently and really is doing so! She basically will be off duty for a few days - just accompanying me and my white cane to the office :(.

Dear Cricket,

2011-09-29T16:40:00.002-06:00

It is another year of us walking to Dick's Market and your needing to walk around the pumpkins. This led me to telling you today, Oh Cricket this brings back so many memories. We need to get your picture in front of the pumpkins.
Twenty or twenty-one years ago we found this grocery store. We were so excited because nearby was also a new subdivision, an elementary school, a junior high, a church, and a UTA bus! For this young blind mom, this was so exciting and made our life so much easier. It was amazing all that was in walking distance plus enjoying a wonderful neighborhood. Such a blessing. I remember us coming to this Dick's Market and climbing over the pumpkins to get to the payphone to call on one of the homes! I know you love our house and neighborhood now - they are just right for us now. This house near Dick's Market was just right for us then. Thanks for helping me walk here safely today. You are doing awesome work and never tire of hearing someone say -- oh my that is the sweetest face. Love, Becky

Red. Red. Red.

2011-09-28T22:47:00.002-06:00

Cricket and I left the Apple store giggling as I texted Natalie to ask her - how many apple associates does it take to help me learn my ipad? The answer today was three! Steve dropped me off on his way to work. I was hoping midday/midweek might mean a less crowded Apple Store. Not so. Fortunately after a couple minutes, I received great help. He began to teach me the art of 'tapping'. Soon, he called another associate over to learn more about the voice over and then another over to assist in the teaching of tapping. Then, they encouraged me to go home and practice. I think I was a bit of a challenging student. Its late and we are finally home after afternoon/evening of work, and I am tapping away :) in my new blouse. I love the ruffles.

Cricket and I stopped in at a favorite little place for a cookie and a drink to sit outside and enjoy this beautiful Fall day. With two bags over my right shoulder, a cookie, a drink for me and a water for Cricket; hands were full and the Diet Coke spilled all over including much on me! I was going straight to the office via a cab after my Gateway time so what could I do? Sit outside and enjoy the yummy raspberry sugar cookie and then stop in at Ann Taylor Loft and buy a new blouse. I'm loving these two new red items in my life ... also this cute little dog with a tinge of red to her that we often get asked if she's a golden.

Therapist's Thoughts

2011-09-27T20:44:00.000-06:00

Cricket, Christy and I are having so much fun studying and teaching our Self-Compassion & Mindfulness Course. A teaser from Kristin Neff's book - So, why is self-compassion a more effective motivator than self-criticism? Because its driving force is love not fear. Love allows us to feel confident and secure (in part by pumping up our oxytocin), while fear makes us feel insecure and jittery (sending our amygdala into overdrive and flooding our systems with cortisol).

Cricket has such a loving heart. It reminds me of another quote in our Dr. Neff's book: When you begin to touch your heart or let your heart be touched, you begin to discover that it's bottomless, that it doesn't have any resolution, that this heart is huge, vast, and limitless. You begin to discover how much warmth and gentleness is there, as well as how much space. Pema Chodron, Start Where you Are

Running. Lunch. Writing. RP.

2011-09-27T05:56:00.002-06:00

Recently, another friend ran with me for the first time. We chatted away and when we rounded our corner I said are we there already? She said 'that was easy - I was really stressed to do this'! It reminded me of a time another friend went to lunch with me for the first time. We sat down, after I had independently, of course, met her for lunch and she said okay, I don't know what I am supposed to do to help you eat. That was several years ago, and we have laughed about it since. Both scenarios a few verbal cues is all that was needed. I am grateful for people that are willing to take that chance and get to know me and learn that the blindness is not a real big deal.

As I mentioned, I spent some time last week with some people that I consider to be my mentors/friends who are also blind. I have learned so much from them. I was chatting with my roommate, and I was talking about writing even though I can't read my notes. I've felt like it was a hanging on to the visual thing. She was so validating and helpful as she told me she had done this as she was making the transition, and it helped her to remember by actively taking notes. I also realize that I won't ever quit handwriting thank you notes. That's a good feeling. I'm transitioning to the ipad2 for many things and loving it. Another late evening at the office tomorrow means time to take a class in the morning and learn a little more about its many features. And, the Ann Taylor store does just happen to be next door to the Apple store :).

I came across this quote and I've been trying to decide how I feel about it --

Disability is not a brave struggle or courage in the face of adversity. Disability is an art. Its an ingenious way to live. Neil Marcus.

Let me explain ...

2011-09-25T21:12:00.006-06:00

I am excited that this week I have Tuesday morning free - first appointment at 1 (that might change). So far, I plan to clean my front porch, dig in my flower beds, hopefully a yoga class, and need to catch up with one of my therapists about one of our projects together. In the meantime, a busy Monday which I love. This skirt has been in my closet for several years - for some reason I remember I wore it to my first day at a job 7 years ago! Side note: my first day at this job (thankfully they had already decided they would hire me), I arrived with a broken foot and stitches above or below my eye - don't remember. Story for another day. Back to the skirt that I don't wear very often - not sure why, I like it and its from Ann Taylor Loft! I remembered that it had little lime green and pink roses. So I wore one of my favorite little sweaters ever from Banana Republic and

my very speical rose earrings from Natalie and walked with Steve and my puppy over to church. Afterwards we took this picture. It was dinner time, and I don't think Cricket is very amused that we had to take a picture before dinner.

A lovely close up of my smile and earrings. I'll keep my smile, laughter and wrinkles. This clip on validation is worth the view!

Have I mentioned how I love working with junior high girls? That's not an easy age in life and I just feel a passion for them. One recently said to me - So, I just figured out that you really can't see. Guess, she'd been doing some testing and I passed on not being able to see (you know having her put her hand out and me totally missing the cue)! I'm pulling the last minute things together for my girls teen group that we are starting tomorrow. Girls, you are awesome! We'll miss you Shannon but we know you are VERY busy these days!

Oh I almost forgot the Let me explain ...

When I am wearing this watch it is often a way I can explain my vision, or lack thereof to someone who really wants to know! I look at this watch and I can't see all of it - that's a lot :), but I can see part and scan to get the gist of the time. Outside this watch area is dark in my vision.

Shopping finds. Retinitis Pigmentosa

2011-09-24T22:38:00.003-06:00

Steve and I have shopped together for 28 years - one of our first dates was near Halloween. He was 'just a friend' and I was telling him I was really tired of going on dates to Haunted Houses! He was going grocery shopping and asked if I wanted to go with him - yes! We've been having fun ever since shopping together. He's a great sport and will describe and help me find anything. Anyone else love the Halloween candy? My favorites Reese's and Peeps and also fit the prescription from the dentist to avoid hard candy after my broken tooth. My favorite healthy treat - Atkins Protein Bar - almond/blueberry. On the days when I go running, I find by 10 I get really hungry and they give me a boost.

My other shopping treasures for the week: my new purple tee from Guide Dogs for the Blind Gift Shop. Awesome raised braille. Capital T ea m of Capital T w o

and this very special gold pin that says GDB (above the harness) and then in braille team.

My other shopping find of the week is my red cover with a keyboard for my ipad. Love it. Still learning the voice over.

Week Recap

2011-09-23T06:16:00.004-06:00

Cricket and I returned last night from our journey to San Rafael - affectionately known as Guide Dog Country for our alumni board meetings and a chance to connect with Mimi. It was so much fun to see her. We had a chance to enjoy lunch and some time on the beach. Thanks so much! She took the lovely pictures - next time one with her!

I absolutely loved my time at the board meetings. Yes, they were meetings and much work to do. There was also much time for laughter and connecting. I loved getting to know our new board members as well as furthering getting to know the others. Its a small world after all is ringing through my head as Melissa and I connected on our dogs and dear friends we both knew! There is something very special about being back in the student dorms ... the memories return.

Plane delay on the way home. Cricket was not impressed, but a great sport about it. A sweet lady came up to me and said she saw me getting out of the van and thought Cricket must be from Guide Dogs for the Blind because of her sweet face! Her enthusiasm for GDB and these dogs was so genuine and kind. I left San Rafael with such deep appreciation for the many people that make a working guide dog team possible. Truly inspiring.

Arriving in the SLC Airport, I was walking quickly to baggage claim to see Steve. This Delta employee came up to me and said he'd been trying to catch up with me so he could assist me to baggage claim :). We walked and talked the rest of the way. He gave a subtle left - right at times that made our journey easier.

My friend and yoga instructor calls life at fast pace times - high speed wobble. I'm in a bit of high speed wobble right now. Life is good and I'm so grateful for the opportunity to be a part of such a fabulous organization - Guide Dogs for the Blind that has blessed my life tremendously.

Going to click 'post' - knock at the door that my running partner is here :).

What's in store for your weekend?

Flight 57 & a few of my favorite things

2011-09-20T07:07:00.001-06:00

We are off to San Rafael, California this morning. I love to travel. It is such an adventure.

Its a short adventure for Cricket and me with meetings. We are excited to get to see Mimi and Cabana for a quick visit. Cricket is an easy traveller. I think she loves the opportunity to show off her skills in new terrain. Just a few of our tips and favorite things that make our travel easy. I love Cricket's fold up bowl. I love Cricket's blanket that helps her feel like anywhere we go is home. I love that it fits easily on the outside of my suitcase with a clip so as soon as we get on the plane I can put it on the floor in front of my feet. (I wish it matched my suitcase better.) I love my little suitcase that is an easy carry on and also has handles on the back so it can be a backpack if needed. I put Cricket's food in bags the size of a serving and they fit nicely in the side pockets. After they are emptied, they make for a great doggie bag. I love Cricket's predictability. This is my first trip taking my ipad2. I'm hoping to learn some new tricks from some of the other board members.

Missing you already, Steve. Take good care of you and also my Fall Mums that I am loving.

Dog Day

2011-09-18T12:14:00.002-06:00

September 17th is a special day for me. Fourteen years ago, I began to walk confidently and independently with a guide dog. I will always remember waiting for that sweet, excited yellow lab that began with the letter P ... Pantera. Four and a half years ago, I was introduced to my adorable yellow lab - Cricket. This day is etched in my mind as dog day.

How did we celebrate? Mostly with a sense of gratitude in my heart all day. Gratitude for the freedom, confidence, joy and independence that have been mine as a part of a Guide Dog Team. I also celebrated with running 5 miles, (amazing), yoga (awesome to do after running -- yogicarts is quite the workout), busy day including a conference call with an amazing group of individuals (GDB Alumni Association) and an evening spent with family and friends. Cricket spent some time at the groomer with the fragrance selected -- sugar cookie, because she is just so yummy!

We just went for a lovely walk. Such a beautiful day! I walked along chatting with Steve with Cricket working her magic. I will fly independently to San Rafael this week with Cricket. I will attend a conference on Friday with my colleagues meeting them at a new location with Cricket by my side with no worries. The list goes on of the freedom a guide dog creates ...

Indeed a day to celebrate. I am so grateful, even as hard as it was to leave my young family 14 years ago for four weeks, (they managed with stories to tell) to have made the decision to become a partner with a guide dog. Pantera and Cricket have enhanced my life tremendously.. beyond words.

This picture describes Me!

2011-09-15T21:33:00.001-06:00

You might draw a few conclusions from this picture? (For my fellow bloggers who are blind - it is a picture of a hair brush, mascara, and lipstick ... then about 4 inches away another hair brush, mascara, and lipstick).

What? Let's just say I got distracted and put together another set of my necessary items for the purse not seeing there was already a set there. A good friend with Retinitis Pigmentosa calls it the 10 second rule. If he searches for something for 10 seconds, can't find it, he let's it go. Most of the time it turns up. Most of the time it works out. I think of his wisdom in other aspects of life, too.

I'm a morning person. I hop out of bed ready to go running and have my best ideas in the morning. Challenge is sometimes I bounce from one thing to the next and then am searching for my purse or phone or hairbrush.
Whenever Cricket weaves me around something instinctively there is a moment of wow - that is incredible. I have walked with a guide dog for 14 years now, and it does not stop being so very special. Tomorrow is a date that has impacted my life. I hope I can slow down from a busy weekend long enough to give it the post it needs!

Brenda and I were running this morning and she instinctively pulled me around a hole in the road. We were chatting away and I had that same feeling of wow - that is incredible. I know in that moment, I didn't thank her. I will thank her on our next run.

A busy day with some new navigation places for Cricket. I have full confidence in her with some yummy treats in my pocket for her great work.

I hope you have a nice weekend doing something you love with someone you love.

Cricket. Keeping me safe

2011-09-14T21:52:00.001-06:00

On a regular work day, Cricket has simple guide work - walk into the office, lay around during my appointments, go for a walk during the day - often the same route, off to lunch at times, walk to pick up the mail, some more lying around during appointments, and being picked up for a ride home. Other days, are more exciting for her with travels to new places, and new routes to learn. Infact, next week, Cricket and I will be hopping on a plane for an adventure.

Today, during our routine of walking up to the grocery store. In preparation for our group on Mindfulness we needed to buy some candy - our group members were to have an experience on mindfully eating chocolate. Try it. Taste it ever so slowly enjoying each bite. We were starting to cross the street when shortly Cricket pulled me back. A car sped through trying to beat the light making a left hand turn. Gave her a hug as we arrived safely to the other side of the street.

As we were checking out at the grocery store, the clerk asked me if Cricket was in training. I said no, she was my guide dog and she said HOW FUN IS THAT! I thought indeed it is fun to have a dog that is keeping me safe and is just so darn cute.

Its a little early, but I am enjoying pulling out my sweaters for the Fall Season. My colleague came in wearing a white skirt ... fun, classy - she totally pulled it off after Labor Day!

Smile

2011-09-13T22:41:00.003-06:00

Last night Steve, Cricket and I went to Joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat. We loved it. I have been singing and dancing the tunes in my head today. Great seating for Cricket.

A few funny sidenotes: At the theater, this lady came up to me and asked me if I lived in Farmington. It took me by surprise and I actually had to stop and think before I said, Bountiful. Then, she said - oh I saw you at Dick's Market today and told my grandchildren that was a working dog and not to pet her :). She was a little embarrassed about coming up to me. I said, oh don't worry I don't know what you look like :).

Speaking of Dick's Market, the cashier asked me if I was training the dog. I said no, I'm blind, my guide dog. She said well you are walking around so well. I said thanks to the dog! I was the last one in line and so she asked if she could follow me outside to watch Cricket work. Sure :).

Slowly, I am learning my ipad2 ... working on learning the voice over. At the Apple Store we ran into a mom with her 15-year-old son that has Retinitis Pigmentosa. She was so excited to meet someone with the same eye condition, and she said to me - You look so happy. Yeah, most of the time. Her son was not near as excited to meet me.

In the process of moving summer clothes out and fall clothes into the closet. Some summer clothes I didn't wear all summer. Should they be stored for next year or is that my message to pass them on?

A session with Cricket

2011-09-12T18:31:00.002-06:00

Clients will say ... oh, if Cricket could talk. She hears much in a day! She spends most sessions on her bed or sometimes sitting nearby the client if they invite her to do so. Generally, in my office her harness is off. She became a nice distraction for a young client who was working through some super tough stuff. As we began, Cricket did her attempt to fluff up her bed. My client asked if she could snap a picture when Cricket was - what we decided was 'feeling frustrated'. (Cricket helps demonstrate feelings). So, when she started, we pulled out the camera. Cricket has posed a few too many times for the camera and stopped trying to fluff her bed and turned to pose when she saw the camera!

A few minutes later we caught her in the act of trying to fluff her bed and stopped our discussion to take a quick picture.

And, a few minutes later we have contented Cricket for the rest of the session.

Most of the time she is not on tie down. Sometimes when the office is super busy with several therapists, I will tie her down to keep her from being the office greeter - which she loves to do. Today was a busy Monday.

Cricket and I love our work at Resilient Solutions, Inc.

Remembering. Running. Reflecting.

2011-09-10T11:30:00.012-06:00

Remembering. 9/11. As each of you, I recall vividly the morning ten years ago. For the next several days, my heart wept for all those who were grieving. I didn't want to leave my family, but we all left for work and school. My colleague and I rode in to the Moran Eye Center to work almost speechless. I longed to be home simply surrounded by my family. I attended a class that afternoon - not sure if it would be held. It was and a life changing class. I recall my professor, through his tears, telling our group of professional counselors to go out and make a difference. Touch someone's lives for good. That day my specialty became clear - grief and loss therapist. As I watched the Tom Brokaw special last evening, my heart wept for all who were impacted on such a personal level. Amongst all the heartbreak, messages of profound love - our relationships in life is what really matters.

This morning as I was watering the flowers - Cricket and I had a nose to nose opportunity. Sometimes it hits me so profoundly how this sweet dog is blessing my life. Perhaps part of the sweetness is I think she doesn't even realize its just who she is. Love her.

Yesterday my friend and I ran a 5K -- Remembering Trudi, who was hit on this route 4 1/2 years ago. I reflected on her life and grateful for the influence that she has had on mine. Once again I was touched by a friend's willingness to be my eyes and give me the chance to run. Lisa was an amazing guide runner. First time and I hope there are more times! THANK YOU, Lisa!

This 9/11 I am grateful that we will be around much family and will pause to reflect and tell them each how much I love and appreciate them. Also, we will miss Natalie and Adam that won't be with us on this day.

Grateful also for an awesome dentist that fixed my tooth. As I left, he smiled and told me to watch out for large statues!

Singletasking

2011-09-07T20:54:00.001-06:00

Celebrating Guide Dog Month, I wanted to share something about Cricket each day. An experience today turned my attention to those times when Cricket is off duty as a guide dog. When she is on duty (harness is on - handle up and she is focused on my safety) it is so easy to forget that I am blind. I was reminded with a smack today.
Today started out to be what my daughter, Natalie likes to call my dream day :). Running in the morning, then a yoga session, and our 25-mile bike ride in the evening with some family/friend time in there, too. We had planned to still be in St. George so the day was blocked out from work appointments. An early return meant time to fit it all in. Running this morning - ah so amazing. Yoga - not to overuse the word amazing but indeed it was. Then, I met my colleague Christy to finalize our details on our Mindfulness and Self-Compassion course to begin next Wednesday. We sat out on the grass enjoying our Jamba Juice and chatting. While she was away for a minute, Cricket and I wandered off a little ways for Cricket to do business. Mindfulness is about embracing the joy and blessings of single tasking. Well, I was letting Crickers be off-duty doing business while I was returning a call. Multitasking. Smack. I felt part of my front tooth fall into my hand. What had I even walked into? A part of a statue in the middle of the grass. So my packed Thursday that was going to start at 9 am at the office will now begin at 7 am with a visit to the dentist to repair my front tooth. I am grateful that Cricket will be on duty for the day. And, I have an example to share with the group next week about staying in the moment and being aware of one's surroundings :).

Yes, we did still fit in a fabulous bike ride on a beautiful summer's night and a yummy lunch with friends, Shannon, Rider and Desiree.

A day with a chipped tooth, but many joyful moments, too.

Cricket visits Zions

2011-09-06T19:43:00.007-06:00

We had a chance to get away to St. George this weekend. We have our favorite trails we like to run and bike. Our favorite restaurants we like to eat. Our favorite little stores we like to shop. We realized we hadn't visited Zions National Park in a few years so we spent a day there enjoying the beauty and nice trails and near 100 degrees.

These shorts work great for Cricket on a hot day - a pocket for treats, pocket for my camera, and even a pocket for water which Cricket was very happy about.

Our hike to Emerald Pools gave us some cool air. We walked steady as the path was wet and slippery on this part.

Squirrels are not afraid to get very close. Cricket turned her head for a quick glance.

Steve stayed on the low adventure trails with us for the day.

Smile for the camera, Cricket. Smart girl, knows.

Most of the trail was real crowded with people, although this picture indicates otherwise!

Cooling off our paws and toes near the end of the paved trail and the start of The Narrows.

We both noticed that the whole time we were at this beautiful National Park not one person asked to pet Cricket! Was everyone just struck by the beauty of this park or some good education at this park on Guide Dogs? Or was it because they saw her walking on some winding trails and knew she needed to focus on her job ... not sure, but it really was nice and added to the enjoyable day.

Celebrating. September is National Guide Dog Month!

Cricket Update

2011-09-05T06:00:00.006-06:00

What about me? Cricket has been saying while we've been blogging much about outfits. She has been doing some great things - such as stopping for cars that pull out crazily, walking around obstacles, sitting quietly at meetings, helping me walk confidently to the front of a group of people to do a presentation, aiding so I can have a deep walk/talk conversations with friends along the beautiful bountiful boulevard, assisting me get to so many places, being my constant companion and simply being an AMAZING, RELIABLE, LOVING, (make that super loving) SIX YEAR OLD AWESOME GUIDE DOG.

Thank you and carry on Cricket. Love and kibbles to you today and always.

Celebrating National Guide Dog Month.

Anything can happen.

2011-09-04T07:00:00.000-06:00

Last day of the 21-day challenge . This challenge was fun in having something I was doing with my daughter, Natalie . I also realized that I did not go shopping in this 21-day period. I also found that it helped me feel like I was shopping and finding new clothes in my own closet! Much of my closet is Ann Taylor clothing (which I love) so for the last day, my goal was to wear nothing from Ann Taylor!

Sweater: J Crew, Necklace: J Crew Pants: Old Navy Shoes: Naturalizer.

We loved Mary Poppins. The singing and dancing is so much fun. I have supercalifragilisticalidocious singing in my head now. The lyrics of this song Anything can happen are one of my favorites too.

Anthing can happen if you let it sometimes things are difficult
but you can bet it doesn't have to be some
Changes can be made
You can move a mountain if you use a larger spade
Anything can happen it's a marvel
You can be a butterfly
Or just stay larval
Stretch your mind beyond fantastic dreams are made or strong elastic
Take some sound advice and don't forget it
Anything Can Happen if you let it
i wonder.....
Anything can happen if you let it
You Won't know a challenge until you've met it
No-one does it for you

No-One but yourself wacillating violets get left up
on the shelf anything can happen just imagine!
That should be my epitah I wear the badge in honour of this world's free thinkers
Those who see beyond their blinkers
Jelly isn't jelly
Till you set it anthing canhpapen if you let it
Anthing can happen if you let it what good is a whistle
Unless you whet it
Broaden Your Horizon
Open different doors
You may find a you there that you never knew was yours
Anything can happen
Raise the curtain things you thought impossible
Will soon seem certain though at first it may sound clownfish see the world
more upside-downish turn it on its head then pirouette it
Anything can happen if you let it

If you reach for the stars all you get are the stars
but we've found a whole new spin if you reach for the heavens
You get the stars thrown in if you reach
for the stars all you get are the stars but we've found a whole new spin if you
reach for the heavens you get the stars thrown in
Anything can happen if you let it
life is out there waiting
so go and get it grab it by the collar seize it by the scruff one
you've started living life you just can't get enough
Anything can happen it's official you can choose the super
or the superficial sally forth the way we're steering obstacles
start disappearing go and chase your dreams you won't regret it
Anything can happen.
I love the reach for the heavens and then you get stars! What's your favorite line of the song?

Guide Runner. Hat.

2011-09-02T06:00:00.028-06:00

Anyone in my area (Davis County, Utah) running a 10 minute mile that doesn't mind pulling me along on September 10th for a special 5K run ? I'm registered and just need a buddy to run. Thanks to these people I am now so brave in running! My friend and running guide, Brenda, is prepping for her marathon next month. Will be running 20 miles that day -yikes! You can see what my friend and running guide, Shannon is up to these days! Steve has an injured foot that is letting him cycle but not run. They make it seem like an easy job to pull me along. I even got to run with Natalie one day while she was visiting. I put the tether through Cricket's paw, but she just is not interested in this running activity.

Last few days of the 21-day challenge . Today: wear something on your head. Wearing a hat in running is generally the only time I wear something on my head. I understand a hat on my sweaty head is not the most fashionable, but its the best I could do. I'm pretty excited that I have just missed a day of the challenge so far and that I have enjoyed shopping in my closet and not at Ann Taylor during the challenge!

Today we will see my parents after their six month service to Nauvoo, Illinois. Yes to hugs from parents!

Celebrating You. Jewelry Statement

2011-09-01T06:00:00.006-06:00

I love jewelery. Not fancy - just simple, cheap, and fun. So, it seemed fitting for the challenge of the day: Make a statement with jewelry to be standing by my jewelry cabinet. This necklace is fun but a little noisy when I walk! We decided I need to get a dark slip for this dress. Oops.

dress: greece trip, belt: greece trip, necklace: Ann Taylor

In the process of preparing our Fall Groups for the office Grief and Loss Groups, Self-Compassion and Mindfulness Group, and Girls' Teen Group.

Dr. Alan Wolfelt says:

Feel good about yourself. Viewing life on the bright side does not come naturally to everyone. It could take some intentional changes in how you view life and your own identity and self image. Start by studying your positive features. What are your strengths and what do you enjoy? What would make you satisfied in life? Who are your favorite people, and what makes you laugh? When was the last time you had a good laugh out loud? What are your greatest accomplishments and what do you have to look forward to in the future? We all have weaknesses and traits we would like to change. We all at some time wish we were smarter or more successful. It's important to stay focused on your merits and nurture a healthy self-esteem and not be pulled down by your perceived faults. Never lose sight of your goodness and unique qualities. This knowledge will help you grow and succeed, even in adverse times. Hold your head up, smile and be proud of who you are. This will not only help your state of mind, but it will improve your health as well.

Make a list of your positive traits today. Take time to allow yourself to feel good about these traits.

For me, sometimes taking that little time to put on jewelry is a way that I celebrate.

Just a taste of the amazing work environment that I have - yesterday while copying a card I forgot where I put my diet coke and then knocked it over and spilled in and around the copier. Two of my colleagues rallied around and had it all cleaned up while I walked back out to greet my new client. Then, they thanked me for the bonding moment we had. Love them.

Running. Cycling. Repairing.

2011-08-31T11:02:00.002-06:00

These shoes sat in my closet all year not being worn. Natalie came for a visit and we realized how cute they were. I meant to put them in her suitcase to take back with her. After she left, I put them on and the strap broke. I stapled it (my repair item on the 21-day challenge) and have been wondering why I haven't worn them more often.

This is a favorite place for conversations in our house and a favorite place for a Cricker Girl to hang out.

Shoes: Ann Taylor Skirt: Ann Taylor Top: Ann Taylor. (Perhaps I could think outside the box a bit or be a sponsor for my friend, Ann)

5K run this morning. So awesome! Thank you, Brenda. After work, we are going to try to hop on the bike for another sunset ride.

Simply Beautiful

2011-08-29T21:04:00.002-06:00

Perfect 24-mile sunset ride.

This time of year, I savor every moment of glorious weather. Its starting to get dark earlier so we have to hurry to get our ride in. Recently Steve rode his single bike with a group and was faster than on our tandem. Motivation for me to pedal fast tonight and earn my spot on the bike! There's just pure joy on a tandem. I think Steve loves having chatter in his ear that he just can't get on his single bike!

Happiness is cycling with my best friend.

Re-create Continued.

2011-08-29T06:00:00.020-06:00

I had a request to write more about recreating myself . Fun! First in the final week of the 21-day challenge, something new with hair. I so often wash my hair, let it dry, get sidetracked doing various things and then last minute try to pull it together. Today, I opted for using the heat rollers and a small curling iron to curl it back away from my face. It was a little wild so I then pulled it back with a barette at the last minute. But to spend more than 15 minutes with my hair is something new!

Shoes: Ann Taylor Loft
Skirt: China Tailor (special memories when I wear this skirt)
Shirt: Ann Taylor
Necklaces: Ann Taylor/Banana Republic.

Back to re-creating myself. Although I have not had normal vision ever, I spent most of my growing up years with ability to see with no night vision and limited peripheral vision. I learned I had Retinitis Pigmentosa, officially, when I was 18 years old. I quit driving (had a restricted license) when my kids were very young and then began to use a cane in 1995. I recall a time of feeling so awkward about pulling out the cane. I had a choice to stay stuck or re-create myself and begin to use a tool that would help me. During this time, I learned about being authentic to myself. I still remember a former neighbor questioning my using the cane. I realized she didn't understand nor could she and I needed to do what was best for myself and my family. The cane became a symbol of freedom and empowerment. I let go of what will people think and it was amazing! I began to walk with a guide dog in 1997 and again felt some re-creation being experienced. With a guide dog, I learned to be much more assertive and gained so much more confidence. I walked with confidence like I had not even known was possible. As I have experienced challenging times -- being asked to leave a place that needs to be educated on the ADA, or someone that talks to me like a child; I find myself taking a gentle breath, smiling and educating them in a clear confidant way. Perhaps part of my emphasis with my clients on Self-Compassion is I have found it a vital part in my journey of re-creating myself. I acknowledge and support the hard parts of my journey in hopefully :) a healthy way. (That sounds like another fun blog post.) Where would I be without Retinitis Pigmentosa that has pushed me to a next level of re-creating myself. I think we all have something that nudges us to re-create ourselves. It is an ongoing journey. I am grateful, and I hold my head high with a smile and let Cricket watch out for the obstacles. I'm also glad today to be challenged by April to spend a little time on my hair!

Happy Monday!

5K run this morning. A little chill in the air ... fall is coming.

Recreate. Outfits. Self.

2011-08-28T10:45:00.000-06:00

Today's dress challenge is to recreate an outfit from a pic. I've found as I have lost my vision, I have found it really helpful to learn from others what colors go in clothing as it seems to change. So this is more of a copycat of the color line than the actual outfit, althought I would love the outfit. A side note: as we were taking this picture, Cricket was aware that next door was their very cute chocolate lab puppy playing in their front yard. Good Girl, Cricket - staying focused on the task at hand.

Love this grey dress. So versatile with many options. Love, grey, yellow, turquoise together.

My version included my urbanoutfitter yellow shoes (my remix), grey banana republic skirt, and love my turquoise colored jewelery (gift from Adam and Natalie from Paris). My turquoise sweater from Nordstrom is so old, but I just love it -- keeps hanging in there.

Yesterday we had a chance to ride our loop with an added very steep hill that Steve added. Thanks, honey! It was hot and felt great. I love being active. As we were biking along, he asked me -- What was the experience like for you last night? (We had gone to a high school football game - crazy chaos, difficult to follow the game, however, surrounded by dear friends). A simple question but I was amazed as tears filled my eyes as we talked about it and the depth of gratitude I felt for him and the experience. As we are recreating an outfit in this challenge, it reminds me that as my vision has been lost, I find myself recreating myself. It is a stretch but one of love and growth.

Splash of Color & Support. Retinitis Pigmentosa.

2011-08-27T06:00:00.002-06:00

Today's challenge is to wear a splash of color with neutral base. Shorts: Ralph Lauren that I wear about every other day :) love them - they are so comfy. Tee shirt: Shade. Sweater: Banana Republic. Bracelet: Whisperwood boutique. Necklace: Love it. It says, Namaste! special gift from a friend.

In a transition with printers in my office so please disregard all the wires hanging around. Cute puppy that hangs close by and yes, I am very careful in rolling out my chair so as not to get her cute floppy ear.

Happy Weekend. Among other things, we will be attending an RP Support Group Meeting. I am such a fan for connecting with others we can relate to in our journeys in life. This group has dear friends that we have really grown close to over the years.

Life & Jazzing up Jeans

2011-08-26T06:00:00.003-06:00

Natalie returned home last night. Loved our time together. I am so often in the pictures .. for some reason, I'm not assigned photographer real often :). They helped me point and click and I took some pictures of my treasures in life.

Kendall and Natalie

Natalie and Steve at Temple Square. Beautiful time of year to walk through the gardens.

It was so much fun to have Natalie visit and do our 21-day challenge together. I'm back on my own for the last week. Today is Jazz up jeans and a tee.

Ann Taylor: Jeans

Shade: White tee

Banana Republic: White blouse

Greece: Belt (such a great trip)

Banana Republic: Necklace

Ann Taylor: Shoes

We hopped on the bike (tandem for those new readers who have asked how I ride a bike!) tonight for our 25-mile loop. At one point, Steve asked me if I was pedaling (oops). I was reflecting on the similarities between our bike ride and life. We have an area that is nice and flat, some parts that are downhill that I sometimes scream as I'm a little scared on the back, a section that the wind was fighting us so hard, a steep hill to climb, and a part where our only option is to be on the sidewalk with overhanging branches and Steve has to warn me to put my head down. Sometimes I get in a pretty reflective mood in thinking about how we have all these different aspects in our life journey.

What do we live for, if it is not to make life less difficult for each other?

Georgia Eliot. I am so grateful for all who make my life less difficult and touch my heart each day including an amazing guide dog.

Favorites. Dress. Connecting

2011-08-25T06:00:00.002-06:00

Today's challenge - Wear a dress. I spent five years in a job where part of the dress code was to wear a dress. For the past several years, that isn't the case. I find myself sometimes just wanting to wear a dress ... just because. This Ann Taylor dress is one of my favorites.

Natalie flies home today. I've loved and savored every minute. Last night we had a bridal shower and such fun to reconnect with friends. Today, another yoga class with Natalie, brunch with a dear friend and Natalie, and a little more time together with the boys. Good times. I love my family. After we say goodbye to Natalie, Steve and I will hop on the bike for our loop. Back to work tomorrow for a full day. I love my work.

When people go to work, they shouldn't have to leave their hearts at home.

Betty Bender

Happiness. Closet Orphan. Blindness

2011-08-24T06:00:00.033-06:00

Random title for this post, I know. Just random thoughts to share. Each morning I go out to water the flowers. Each morning I search for the water spicket in the backyard to fill my watering pail for the back pots. It recently occurred to me that this bouquet of happiness (yellow flowers) is right by the spicket - such a lovely landmark to find. Blindness is often simply orienting oneself to surroundings on a more conscious level. With Natalie here, we've been doing much reminiscing and visiting landmarks in her life. Sweet.

Simple pleasures = having the family together. So much fun. (We miss Adam and Dahlia ... next time.)

My closet orphan for the 21-day challenge is these gold flip flops. They are comfortable, cute, and from Ann Taylor -- how have I forgotten about them all summer?

"Happiness is different from pleasure. Happiness has something to do with struggling and enduring and accomplishing." – George Sheehan. A quote my brother sent me today.

Natalie and I got the giggles when she asked where my full-length mirror is ... mom how do you get ready? oh yeah! Mirrors are just not necessary.